neva scared.

happy astrological new year? is it just me, or have things been extremely hectic this whole week? this has felt like the longest week on the face of the planet. i understand that we just had a whole equinox + the supermoon (in my moon sign of libra so SHIT) that happened this past week but my goodness…my body is just kaput. a perfect example of such is today: i was not feeling good when i was awakened by my stomach at 4:30 in the morning. my alarm doesn’t go off until 6:55 everyday. now i’m laying there and thankfully, i had some friends to talk to while i’m sitting there in pain, unable to really move. i start the process of trying to get ready for work WAY EARLIER than normal, but since i’m feeling well, it’s just not working. my body is aching and it’s tired. my throat was a little dry and my stomach felt like the circus was having a free-for-all. i also started to get that nauseous feeling that hinders me from moving too much, but i know i want to try and teach some of my classes. there are days where i try and sleep it off and push through, and then there are days where there is just no returning. today was one of those come in a little later, do what i got to do, and dip as soon as i get the green light to go…and i sit here right now in sweats and a hoodie in front of a space heater just trying to stay warm and pray that my migraine goes away. i actually was walking up stairs at work and had to sit on the steps to take a break. this just shows me that my body is trying to gather its strength back in order to function at its best capacity and it needs a little more care, which i know i need to give myself.

but that’s not really what i wanted to talk about – i just wanted to acknowledge how wild this week has been! this week felt like the slowest week in quite some time, and it felt like there was so much going on. since we have stepped into this new season of abundance, there have been so many signs that i have been paying attention to, downloading, and allowing my chakras to help sense out what’s best for me and what is going to help propel me forward. as someone who is breaking the tradition of being a perfectionist (as they’ve always been their whole life), I am beginning to realize the beauty in just ‘being present’ is something that is unmatched. going with your heart and your intuition is what drives us all the time. those things excite us. they make us want to keep pushing. i’ve been doing a lot of work in regards to finding out what those things are and how to live that life of peace regularly. being drained everyday and not in the best way tends to weigh on your shoulders. this is where you figure out how to insert joy into your day your own personal way, and you let that manifest itself as time goes on.

something i was recently pushed to do was do tarot card readings on my IG live (@__sobredosis) in the mornings by a friend.  she told me to stop sleeping on myself and then something clicked for us…

before work, i always pull my own tarot and oracle cards for myself, but i decided to try and kick it up a notch this week doing it on IG live. even though i was extremely nervous at first, i was able to just breathe and show my process for grounding, and find myself through it without being affected as greatly as anticipated. people responded. it hit them. i got lots of positive feedback. and i felt at peace with it also. i’m grateful people gave me a chance, and i’m proud of myself for taking that leap. it made me begin to wonder what else there is at my disposal that i’m letting slide by the wayside way too often? what gifts are laying dormant? which gifts are highly prevalent, but are not being used to their fullest potential? figuring all of that out is part of a beautiful journey that i’m grateful to be a part of and make happen.  i also know that my gifts are made to be shared and i am dedicated to sharing them as time continues on.

the answers always won’t make sense, i’ve come to learn. all a bitch can do is have faith that things are going to be fine and my dreams will come true. the purpose and the path are slightly becoming more and more clear as days go by, and i look forward to what they become in the future. i have also learned to just trust what i know is right. i am the type of person at times that likes to please others for whatever fucking reason – blame it on looking for approval as a child for so long. however, sometimes people don’t have your best interest at heart and learning how to have faith in the decisions that you make that may be ‘unpopular’ is best for you. if we all followed those feelings instead of being worried about what others are going to say about what we are doing…then what’s the point? we are human. it hurts. it stings. but at the same time, it’s a lesson that helps drive you to where you want to go and allows you to make the decision on who and what is right for you.

the best part about it? no one knows the answers to the questions but you.

this is a great time for you to go inward and do some excavating to make room for all the new shit you want. there is abundance waiting on the other side. all it’s waiting for is you to put your bags down and come on over. when you accept the invitation towards your greatness briefcase, your life will change. then, it’s time for you to hit the road running. small steps is all the universe is asking for you. and you’ll evolve along with it. you just need to be open and let that heart chakra receive and that throat chakra expel.

stay encouraged, even when you don’t feel like your mission is hitting the way you want it to. invest in people that will push you to be your best self and vibrate on the same plane you do and hold you down. everyone’s advice isn’t sound advice, and a truly trained intuition knows what’s gucci and what isn’t. there are always going to be snakes in the grass, and it’s your job to pay attention to whom and what you allow yourself to be a part of. trust yourself, and let the Universe guide you the rest of the way.

your job during this time period is to start planning how you want to move in your truth. the time is now for you to move your chess piece and break the ice. are you ready to play the game towards your victory? let’s dive in…because i came ready to play this season.

amen. asé.

-gg