neva scared.

happy astrological new year? is it just me, or have things been extremely hectic this whole week? this has felt like the longest week on the face of the planet. i understand that we just had a whole equinox + the supermoon (in my moon sign of libra so SHIT) that happened this past week but my goodness…my body is just kaput. a perfect example of such is today: i was not feeling good when i was awakened by my stomach at 4:30 in the morning. my alarm doesn’t go off until 6:55 everyday. now i’m laying there and thankfully, i had some friends to talk to while i’m sitting there in pain, unable to really move. i start the process of trying to get ready for work WAY EARLIER than normal, but since i’m feeling well, it’s just not working. my body is aching and it’s tired. my throat was a little dry and my stomach felt like the circus was having a free-for-all. i also started to get that nauseous feeling that hinders me from moving too much, but i know i want to try and teach some of my classes. there are days where i try and sleep it off and push through, and then there are days where there is just no returning. today was one of those come in a little later, do what i got to do, and dip as soon as i get the green light to go…and i sit here right now in sweats and a hoodie in front of a space heater just trying to stay warm and pray that my migraine goes away. i actually was walking up stairs at work and had to sit on the steps to take a break. this just shows me that my body is trying to gather its strength back in order to function at its best capacity and it needs a little more care, which i know i need to give myself.

but that’s not really what i wanted to talk about – i just wanted to acknowledge how wild this week has been! this week felt like the slowest week in quite some time, and it felt like there was so much going on. since we have stepped into this new season of abundance, there have been so many signs that i have been paying attention to, downloading, and allowing my chakras to help sense out what’s best for me and what is going to help propel me forward. as someone who is breaking the tradition of being a perfectionist (as they’ve always been their whole life), I am beginning to realize the beauty in just ‘being present’ is something that is unmatched. going with your heart and your intuition is what drives us all the time. those things excite us. they make us want to keep pushing. i’ve been doing a lot of work in regards to finding out what those things are and how to live that life of peace regularly. being drained everyday and not in the best way tends to weigh on your shoulders. this is where you figure out how to insert joy into your day your own personal way, and you let that manifest itself as time goes on.

something i was recently pushed to do was do tarot card readings on my IG live (@__sobredosis) in the mornings by a friend.  she told me to stop sleeping on myself and then something clicked for us…

before work, i always pull my own tarot and oracle cards for myself, but i decided to try and kick it up a notch this week doing it on IG live. even though i was extremely nervous at first, i was able to just breathe and show my process for grounding, and find myself through it without being affected as greatly as anticipated. people responded. it hit them. i got lots of positive feedback. and i felt at peace with it also. i’m grateful people gave me a chance, and i’m proud of myself for taking that leap. it made me begin to wonder what else there is at my disposal that i’m letting slide by the wayside way too often? what gifts are laying dormant? which gifts are highly prevalent, but are not being used to their fullest potential? figuring all of that out is part of a beautiful journey that i’m grateful to be a part of and make happen.  i also know that my gifts are made to be shared and i am dedicated to sharing them as time continues on.

the answers always won’t make sense, i’ve come to learn. all a bitch can do is have faith that things are going to be fine and my dreams will come true. the purpose and the path are slightly becoming more and more clear as days go by, and i look forward to what they become in the future. i have also learned to just trust what i know is right. i am the type of person at times that likes to please others for whatever fucking reason – blame it on looking for approval as a child for so long. however, sometimes people don’t have your best interest at heart and learning how to have faith in the decisions that you make that may be ‘unpopular’ is best for you. if we all followed those feelings instead of being worried about what others are going to say about what we are doing…then what’s the point? we are human. it hurts. it stings. but at the same time, it’s a lesson that helps drive you to where you want to go and allows you to make the decision on who and what is right for you.

the best part about it? no one knows the answers to the questions but you.

this is a great time for you to go inward and do some excavating to make room for all the new shit you want. there is abundance waiting on the other side. all it’s waiting for is you to put your bags down and come on over. when you accept the invitation towards your greatness briefcase, your life will change. then, it’s time for you to hit the road running. small steps is all the universe is asking for you. and you’ll evolve along with it. you just need to be open and let that heart chakra receive and that throat chakra expel.

stay encouraged, even when you don’t feel like your mission is hitting the way you want it to. invest in people that will push you to be your best self and vibrate on the same plane you do and hold you down. everyone’s advice isn’t sound advice, and a truly trained intuition knows what’s gucci and what isn’t. there are always going to be snakes in the grass, and it’s your job to pay attention to whom and what you allow yourself to be a part of. trust yourself, and let the Universe guide you the rest of the way.

your job during this time period is to start planning how you want to move in your truth. the time is now for you to move your chess piece and break the ice. are you ready to play the game towards your victory? let’s dive in…because i came ready to play this season.

amen. asé.

-gg

Firm ‘n’ Fishy [FIRM FOUNDATION + UNDINES AND MERMAIDS]

So, this week is winter break for most teachers and let me tell you, i have just have to thank the Ancestors for this additional time off (that i’m getting paid for + i am not out on disability because of having a mental breakdown YAY!) because it’s great to just be able to live like a regular human. I actually am enjoying getting back to being able to write and update with general writing and stuff because my spirit can handle it. when you’re in a space that takes your energy away, getting ANYTHING out is difficult and i’m a firm believer in following the energy. anyways, as mentioned before, I had been getting requests to start writing about my tarot and oracle card pulls. well, i’ll show you what both of them were for the day and then we can talk more about what i’m getting from them personally.

Today’s Oracle Card was the Physical card Firm Foundation with the #4 adorned at the top, and the Tarot pull of the day was Undines and Mermaids from my Tarot of the Orishas deck.

As we see in regards to Firm Foundations, we see that the card is outlined in red, and there is a mountain that is in front of this strong strapping black man. There is a huge red triangle is highlighting his lower back, which I attribute to the root chakra being highlighted here. You may not be able to see it on the card, but the triangle is actually outlined in various colors, like a rainbow of colors. This man is standing in front of this majestic mountain and he’s not looking at it head on but standing looking off to the side a bit as it seems as though he’s pondering what endeavor he is about to take on. There are also what looks like archways in the foreground, which can mean that it’s going to take a while for him to walk and climb that mountain, but it’s still in his sights.

All of this makes me think that it is important that we focus on keeping ourselves grounded as we have come into this new super powerful energy. We are going to be feeling extra full of ourselves when it comes to taking on new endeavors and ambitions, but we have to remember that we cannot get derailed along the journey. What I see this mountain represents is what’s out in the distance is finally able to be materialized. It’s tangible. For me personally, I’ve been trying to ‘figure it out’ in regards to what is supposed to be coming next for me, but I am feeling like it’s all starting to come together and I have to have faith that I will get there and climb that mountain. The number 4 is related to structure, foundation, stable situations, and planning. This means that with proper planning, having some sort of valuable structure, and ensuring that you think of all possible outcomes and necessary things before you begin your journey, you’ll be good to go. Just don’t get knocked off your feet whether you’re on the ground or up in the air. I also rolled a nice lucky 7 for my own personal dice divination this morning, so I think that what I’m saying is hitting on SUM.

As long as you make sure that you have good judgment and lay down the framework as best as possible when it comes to whatever endeavor, you will be able to build security for yourself in the future. Just keep in mind that good actions come with good rewards and questionable actions come with questionable results. Don’t take advantage of people or situations for the negative – be a sponge, be open, and be receptive to what’s out there to help you set the yams out properly for a win. Also, it’s important that you give back to those that help you along the way – those folks that ground you are going to be important as you move forward on this path. Reach out to the friends and family that keep you spiritually fed, and allow them to see the beauty you are working on. Allow their suggestions to hold some weight and remember that you are forever learning. This is what will help you achieve greatness.

Now, along with my tarot card pull, this is interesting. Before I continue, I just want to say that most days, I’m just pulling for myself but then am able to share my experiences and thoughts and hope that it’s able to touch you. That’s all – I hope something hits on something for you. With Undines and Mermaids, we see a beautiful mermaid underwater holding onto what looks like two seashells. She is PERCHT underneath the sea as the fish and all the beauty of the ocean surrounds her. Mermaids deal with love, and this card has to deal with those that are in the field of communication…whether it be written, visual or oral. It means that you will be finding a tribe of some sort soon to help you get your voice out there the way that you want to. It comes to people who put in the time to get to their level of expertise: doctors, masseurs, reporters, art critics, etc. The idea is that people who use the method of communication are those that are going to be feeling a boost of energy today. I am feeling that the beauty that you possess inside is meant to be shared on the outside without worry for judgment. We all tend to be concerned with what others think or will say about what we share with the public, and if you have something on your chest you want to get off, feel comfortable enough to divulge what’s tea so that way, others can get on board with your message and support you the way you need + allow you to become that much more real with yourself and ingrained in the world around you. It also will help you discern who is down for the ride in your life and who isn’t able to see your beauty.

All in all, the TL;DR version: Discern who are the people in your life that will help you allow your voice to be heard the way you want it to be heard, and remember that having a strong foundation and plan to achieve your dreams is the only way for progress to happen. You can’t sprint towards your goals; ease on into them like a dick in a butt.

I hope this spoke to you in some way.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Blurred Visions.

“Use your vision as your sounding board. From the types of projects that you take on to the images that you post, continually ask yourself, “is this consistent with where I am trying to go?” Be patient, and stay dedicated to the game. Building a brand takes time, but it will be worth it once you get there.” – Sinead Bovell

This quote was taken from a very great friend of mine who is changing the game by talking about entrepreneurship while being a model and talking about the impact of the tech industry in our current global climate, Sinead Bovell. Her website WAYE, Weekly Advice for the Young Entrepreneur, gives tips to those that are making their vision come to the forefront and gives tips on how to stay encouraged in your work, as well as documenting her journey from changing her initial career into something that empowers young people to follow their dreams. This video she shared with me and with her networks is something that I continue to watch and reflect on over and over again because of how powerful it is.

Do you know how powerful it is to follow your vision? Do you even have a vision as to where you want to see yourself? Sometimes, we get so caught up in wanting more that we don’t intentionally plan out and sell ourselves out to our dreams and our visions.

As my birthday is right around the corner, I always get extremely reflective around this time about how far I have come since celebrating my last birthday. As a Scorpio Sun and a Libra Moon (this moon transit has been taking your boy completely out the game), I’m extremely analytical about everything and we have a reputation of being extremely bold and not giving a damn about what others have to say. I can say that for me, that hasn’t always been the case. I have gotten better at it the older I’ve gotten but it hasn’t been easy. I’ve always known that the space that I’ve been functioning from has been a place of fear as if I am always worried about what the next logical step is going to be when it comes to manifesting my dreams and staying grounded in them. It’s so important to remember how important it is to sell ourselves out to our visions, and not allow ourselves to be blurred by everyday life and the happenings that cause us to be derailed from our true happiness.

As someone who struggles with depression and anxiety, I find myself second guessing myself a lot of the time when it comes to the things I want to manifest in my life and don’t allow the true vision that I want to see be my actual reality come to the forefront. I get anxious that my dreams are bigger than what I’m actually able to manifest. I get anxious that people will not believe in my dreams and I won’t be supported. I get nervous to reach out to others to help me on that path to allowing my visions to become reality. I say all this to ask you to reflect and wonder – are you living life through your eyes or someone else’s?

As we have grown up in life, we go by doing what our parents want most for us a lot of the time. We revere their advice as the end all be all, and sometimes forget to take into account what our intuition knows is best for us, as well as forget that we have to create our own paths towards greatness without fear in order to manifest what is true for us. I’m here to remind you to stop getting in your own way. I say this to myself also, and Sinead’s quote from her website is one that really stuck out to me. She speaks on building your brand and it taking time for you to get there. Everything is not instantaneous, and we have to continue to be intentional and focused on manifesting the vision that we have for ourselves in regards to the work we want to see ourselves doing. There are always going to be drawbacks, obstacles, and negative people and situations that try and stop us from reaching our full potential, but I’m here today to remind you that there is nothing that is TOO BIG for you to attain. It all starts with you and how sold out you are to your true vision.

That takes time. That takes work. That takes you not having blurred vision and allowing others to attribute to those blurred lines because you have yourself to worry about at the end of the day and no one else. I’m also here to remind you that those that are truly in support of what you see yourself doing will be there to help you brainstorm and push you to continually get to the space that you see yourself being in.

But it is EXTREMELY important that you are clear in what that vision is. Take into account trying to explain a math problem to someone, but you don’t have a background in math. How is someone supposed to follow you or be able to take your ‘expertise’ at face value if you actually haven’t taken the time to sit, prepare, execute and explain your train of thought while working on this math problem with someone else? You have to be crystal clear in the manifestations that you want to happen in your life and the visions that you so desperately want to see come to pass.

We all have really huge dreams, but they’re just fantasies if we don’t put in the work to actually seeing them happen. You have to be consistent in making moves towards achieving your dreams on a regular basis. They’re the things that make you wake up in the morning daily, and give you life, even when you feel like you’re deprived of energy. They are the things that truly bring you joy every day when you don’t feel like doing much else. They are the things that help you feel as though you are moving in this space of service in this world. Stay true to your own vision and don’t let anyone else tell you that your visions aren’t valid. Those are the ones that blur your vision and derail you from your space of greatness.

As I encroach the time of me turning 29, I re-dedicate myself to following my dreams and not just having them as fantasies. I also re-dedicate myself to being able to talk about said visions I have for myself and moving towards them on a regular basis in whatever way that looks like. Don’t put pressure on yourself. Don’t beat yourself up when things don’t transpire the way you THOUGHT they would. With careful planning, being intentional about what you do, and moving with grace and gratitude daily, your dreams can come to the light if you so choose.

I encourage you to take some time to think about the actionable steps you can take to achieving your goals and making those visions come true. Trust, it’ll all be worth it when you start moving at your pace instead of someone else’s. You have the power to reframe your whole life. Thoughts become things. Words become bond. Be mindful of the actions you take and the things you think. Be mindful of how you move in this world, and be unapologetic when it comes to getting where you want to be.

You got this. I got this. We all got this, okurr?

Amen. Asé.

-gg