harmonious harvests. [6 – HARMONY]

Today marks the Full Moon in Virgo, which also happens to be the first and only Supermoon of the year. This moon is called the “Snow Moon” because it represented when the heaviest snow would fall during the time Native Americans inhabited the land. It’s said that this transit is happening while we are transitioning into Pisces season, which is the closing of doors in regards to the zodiac cycle. The Full Moon, which typically is connected to release, is asking you to take a step back from everything, assess how far you come, let go of what doesn’t serve you still (the shit that you know is sitting in your face that you’re ignoring) and step into your authority. We all have been experiencing a lot of back and forth when it comes to making decisions on what we want and deserve, and this Super Moon is telling us to take what is ours and make it our bitch. When you detach yourself from things so heavily, take an objective step back and assess, and come back…that’s when you’re able to make the best decisions and that is what this Super Moon is asking you to do.

These days, I’ve been in the business of trying to figure out what my next move is going to be. I know that I have been outgrowing a lot of things in my life: people, places, situations, lifestyles…and I’ve been feeling like there’s a breakthrough on the horizon. This aligns quite perfectly with what the Cosmos are telling us to pay attention to, and I’ve been allowing my intuition to lead more than ever these days. This is important because we are celestial beings beyond anything else, and our spirits know what is going to be best for us in order to function at our highest level of good. I’ve been questioning a lot in life lately – there’s been quite a lot of reason for me to do that. I’m at an age where everything is like coming with a consequence, and I want to ensure that whatever decisions I make are going to benefit me in the long run.

With this Super Moon we are experiencing today (10:53 AM is the time I believe that the Full Moon actually hits), it’s going to make us move forward, excavating the fears that we possess at our core to ensure that we don’t worry about what’s coming forward. We can tend to overthink things (I’m the prime example of a bitch that does that), and what you are being asked to do right now more than ever is trust your gut and trust your instincts as to where they are trying to lead you. Don’t let your fears overrun your decisions, and lead with the truth.

Today as I was doing my morning pull, I came across the Harmony card. I wanted to share it because lately, I have been working on keeping the consistency in my pulling and people have been wanting me to share more of my pulls, so anyways, lemme go ahead and explain what this Harmony card is bringing up for me. IMG_1146

The Harmony card, as you can see, has two people that seem as though they are joining forces. It’s a Major Arcana card, and the number 6 (represents appreciation, self-sacrifice, loyalty, responsibility) is at the top. I look at this as the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine coming together to find peace in their situation. Surrounding them are flowers, which identifies their connection to the overall being that is Nature and when the two are able to combine, there is a Light that appears between them. What I interpret this to be is searching for those parts of yourself that you are attempting to bring to the forefront and make those prevalent, while also appreciating those parts of yourself that you may feel overrun you for the worse. Remember that life is a balance and when you are able to find true harmony in any situation, joy is right around the corner. Allowing the pieces of yourself that you want to shine come to the surface is what is the main focus for you during this time frame, and the Light will appear when you find harmony in all that you’re working towards.

The card signifies that there is a possibility that there will be some deep spiritual initiation, partnership, or union that manifests itself currently or in the future. Don’t think of it just as a love affair; it can appear as a variety of things. Remember that all partnerships are valuable and that you need to ask yourself if these partnerships in your life are bringing to you what you need in order to feel grounded. Every person is a mirror reflection of you, and at this time you need to truly focus on ensuring that you are making the proper choices in your relationships and loosing yourself of those people and places that don’t support your inner space. Every person you encounter is made to teach you something, and when the course that they offer is up, lovingly let them go. Some folks are made to be life-long subscribers, as they bring harmonious pleasures to your life. Take some time today to distinguish who brings you peace, who doesn’t, and whether or not your ‘places & spaces’ empower and encourage you to be all that you can be. If they are not doing that, lovingly release them and spend some time today taking inventory on what needs to be purged in order for you to allow Harmony to be your barometer.

Otherwise, personally…I have high hopes for whatever is to come. The thing about life is whenever you have lows, the only way to go is up. I trust that no matter what comes my way, I’ll be able to use the wisdom that I carry in order to grow. I encourage you to use your wisdom to make sense of things during this Full Moon season, and release that which does not serve you. Also, start to manifest the New Beginnings you want to see in your life, and allow those to be where you start sending your energy. It’ll benefit you in the long run in so many ways, and you’ll have the starting points for the blueprint that you’re creating, or already have started to draw up.  The future awaits.

.Amen. Asé.

-gg

Runaway

“A better future can be imagined for segments of time, but it is only in this time that a better future can be built.” – Brendon Burchard

When it comes to examining what is happening in your life, do you face challenges head on or do you tend to run away from them? Have you been in a space of daydreaming so much about what is going to happen in your future that you haven’t taken a bit of time to be present figure out what is happening right around you? Are you present? *knocks on your head*

I ask all these questions because it’s natural to have an aversion to really digging deep into certain challenges. We all have lives that have had some sort of experience with pain, trauma, unhappiness, or misalignment. These experiences have the ability to hinder us from pushing forward in times that are necessary for us to weather the storm…and this comes mainly out of in the form of fear. We think about the lives that we want to have, and want these things to come to pass without really thinking about the work that goes into it. You may not have the answer completely as to what you have a question about, but what you do know is that you have a question.

I know that I have been thinking about mind mapping things out that will help me to achieve the life that I have wanted in a way. Personally, I have been feeling somewhat outside of my own body lately. While sitting in therapy (yes, I am in therapy and therapy is good for you as much as your family may try and think that God is the only one that can fix all your problems) and was explaining how I’ve just been feeling outside of myself in terms of the things that I’m doing and not feeling complete and like I’m present in everything I do. The worst thing someone can do is go through life just for the sake of going through life without any answers or understanding as to why they do what they do and facing their challenges. He asked me to describe why I felt that way, and I struggled for a bit to explain where those feelings were coming from.

After sitting for a bit, I realized that everything that I have been doing is not aligning completely with what I want for myself, and some of the actions that I have been taking don’t necessarily feel like actions that I want to partake in. One of them is a new endeavor that requires me to be somewhere literally every night…and I have NOT been going as frequently as asked to be there. As an introvert (and also still working in education), I am completely DRAINED at the end of my workday even though it has been cut by a couple of hours. It’s also just not my cup of tea, and I’ve been having a hard time admitting that just because it works for others a certain way, I’m not everyone else and it doesn’t work out for me the same way. This isn’t me being rebellious or not ‘trying’ – this is just me being real as hell. Then, I’m supposed to be at these meetings with these strangers at times, and it really isn’t somewhere I want to be. I find it to be a challenge to be there every day in a different setting, not knowing who I am going to run into and I HATE making small talk or trying to connect to people in that space. It’s felt very inauthentic to who I am as a person and doesn’t feel like it resonates with who I am. It’s been a challenge because I have been running away from doing what is ‘suggested to me’ in order for me to gain the mental clarity that “they say” I need in order to progress in sobriety.

After that, I’ve been having this guilt about not going to the gym as I talked about trying to achieve my “forever body” a couple of posts ago, and realized that the intention behind me going to the gym was only because I was trying to prepare myself for Survivor over the summer. I also used to venture to the gym alone, and even with a friend…I don’t think I would enjoy it. It would make me feel good I went…but that was only because I know that I was paying that monthly fee and I’m glad I put that money to good use.

However, I came to the conclusion as I spoke that my journey is not like everyone else’s and the way that I feel is valid. I have realized that the way I get to the place that I want to be doesn’t have to look like how someone else has gotten there and I have to be okay with that. I have control over some things in my life (not all, which as a Scorpio is a hard thing to admit), and I should be able to manifest some form of happiness even in those challenges in a way that doesn’t have to be completely COMFORTABLE, but also shouldn’t heighten my anxiety. I have to believe that even though my journey to happiness on my own terms isn’t impossible, and I do believe that. I believe that breakthroughs are meant to come my way (and your way also) when you let down the walls of what you believe should happen, and take action towards just choosing to BE and stand in FAITH that whatever is going to come your way will come, even if it seems like a difficult challenge to face. You also have to remember that authenticity and tenacity are key.

I realized that me being in the gym was just because of me seeing others in the gym and having the bodies that I have wanted to have for such a long time. I know that that takes work, but that doesn’t mean that it has to be achieved the same way that it’s been achieved by others. I actually signed up for yoga classes this week, because that has been something that I’ve been wanting to do, and know that even though they may not have the same physical results as the gym would for those gym heads, that’s not the type of way I want to achieve the body I’m looking to have. I think about this as not running away from my challenge, but maneuvering differently around it and figuring out how to make it work for me the way I want to make it work for me.

I quoted the quote earlier because the future is able to be built in the present. I can’t just dream about it and imagine that it’s going to just come to pass. As stated before, work has to be put in in order to acquire what you desire. The way that that can be done is ever changing – it is necessary to make sure the intention behind it is pure and also soul-filling in the way that you want it to be. If you do something out of spite or feeling obligated to, chances are you will not perform it to the best of your ability or the way that you initially intended it to happen. You can’t avoid what reality is in the moment – it’s so tempting to run away and hide from what you don’t want to face. But where does that really get you in the end? Free and motivated people do not avoid reality – they face it head on and make shit crack the way they’re supposed to. It doesn’t have to always be flowers and candy and lollipops…sometimes, it’s going to be raindrops, drop tops, and hot boxes.

Okay, not really, but you get what I mean.

When you meet your challenge head-on, you find success. So instead of running away from the challenge, find a way to outsmart it and pivot so that way, you can avoid blocking your blessing and getting to the space you want to see yourself at.

Think of ways that you can go into this week facing your difficulties head-on, and then reflect on what you were able to learn from having to confront those hard situations. I bet you’ll come out on the other side with a level of wisdom that you never thought you would truly have. We’re about to exit Virgo season soon and enter Libra season, and things will start to make more sense and chill out for you. You won’t be as high strung and you’ll actually be able to enjoy life and the challenges it throws at you. You’ll be able to handle them with ease.

Just keep floating, as they say. And remember, running away from your problems never answers them. It just leaves the problems at your doormat for you to have to answer them later on down the road…and who wants to be bothered with old shit minutes, hours, days, weeks, months from now? Just go ahead, do the work, build the future you want, and stop being a little bitch about it by avoiding the things you need to do. *insert black emoji shrug here* and I say that from the most loving place ever.

Go into this week with power, and run forward instead of running away.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Tarot Pull – 8.13.18 – VI (6) of Air Inverted

Happy Monday guys. Today has been somewhat of one of those Mondays here in New York – rainy, and just a nuisance to have to deal with cloudy weather. I’m the type of person/empath where my emotions and the weather match, and today is a perfect example of what that means. It’s just been really ugly all day long, and that’s never fun.

Did y’all watch Insecure last night? I know I did. I have my thoughts about what this season is going to give, such as Molly setting her boundaries with Dro (COME ON UNIVERSE BEING ALIGNED WITH ISSA RAE AND ALL THE WRITERS IN REGARDS TO MY POSTS COMING TO LIFE) and Issa just trying to get her head on straight when it comes to her whole life. It seems like everyone in the show is in a state of becoming, and so are we. We are becoming even truer versions of ourselves, and fighting to remember what is most important to us and our spiritual growth, as well as our mental health. Hell, even people on television are proving to us that it’s important for us to remember what our boundaries are, and who the hell we actually are.

Today, before I lead into the Tarot Card pull of the day, I want to give you all this mantra I came across this week. Weekly, I read the tarot cards for the energy that you should be channeling from the week from one of my favorite websites, Forever Conscious, and the mantra at the very end of the page spoke to me.

“I see my past as my friend, leading me towards a positive future. I let go of any negative thought patterns. I am always moving forward.”

This was something I needed to read. Yesterday, I felt extremely guilty for not writing, but I just didn’t have the energy or the time, honestly. My mind has been in flux lately with so many things going on – work starting next week, me being out of town this weekend and being disconnected from the world, writing letters of recommendation for college, helping a friend edit his book…the list goes on. Normally, all of these things lead me to feel frantic and overwhelmed. I hate having a to-do list and feeling like there’s not enough time for me to get everything done, but also find that balance between productivity and running myself ragged. I simply beat myself up for sleeping in too late today (lemme tell you, sleeping in front of the A/C all night will fuck you up the next morning), but I knew that my body needed the rest. I was sad I didn’t post yesterday, but knew that creatively, my mind needed a break. I worked on some personal stuff instead, and I remembered that there’s no need for me to go into this anxiety driven state, like I normally do. Sometimes, all I need to do is take a breath, connect with my soul star and my Earth star, and just remember that I am not perfect. Whatever can get done will get done. I urge you to take care of yourself and your process this week, and learn from how you have felt in the past and whether or not it served you. I mean, today, I got in the gym (and y’all know how I just groaned and moaned about being in the gym a couple posts ago). I knew that it was a priority and a promise I made to myself, and I wanted to stick to it because I knew it would help me in the long run. While I was exhausted afterwards (and still am), I’m glad I didn’t succumb to the idea of just saying ‘no’ and finding a way to talk myself out of it. I faced my truth, and knew that my ideas of the gym were a lie. It can be a haven of peace and release if I allow it to be. That’s a choice I consciously have to make, and I am moving forward and releasing negative thought patterns around it.

If there’s something in your life today that you have had negative experiences with in the past, they offer lessons to us. If the lesson is you staying away from that space, honor that. If you have a negative thought pattern around it that is unjustified, take some time to look inside yourself and figure out why you feel the way that you feel. Perhaps it can clarify some things for you, and allow you to do the inner work necessary to prevail and remind yourself of why you can make a choice to change the way you react to things for the better.

Now, today’s card is the 6 of Air inverted.

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As ya’ll can see, there are a bunch of birds flying around a beach, with the sun in the background, looking peaceful.

“Six birds on the seashore fly away. They may be trying to reach other lands, or they may just be flying around, playing in the air. In the air, they feel like queens of the sky, endowed as they are with the gift of flying and the ability to spend the night on any shore where they find suitable weather.”

I interpret this in general to mean that wherever you are, you have a choice – you either can move around and do different things, experience different emotions, and go through different circumstances if you choose. You can also just chill, be majestic, and know that the gifts that you are blessed with allow you to be where you want to be when you want to be there. It also talks about them ‘playing in the air’. Sometimes, you can choose to move around with purpose. Sometimes, you just want to be free. Channel that energy if you choose.

However, the inversion of this card has a different meaning. It states: ‘dispersion, distraction, disquiet. Immobility, putting down roots, settling down. That which does not mutate.’

A couple of things that arise from within me – you may be feeling like there are so many distractions happening in your life right now. I know I have been. Take a second to figure out why you’re distracted if you are, get to the root of it, and determine whether or not said distraction is worth that energy. You may be led to spread some of your love, some of that energy that has you distracted, or whatever has you stagnant to other areas of your life. Don’t feel like you can’t move or you’re ‘immobile’. That is a choice if you allow it to be. Life is made to be lived as free, and you (me) personally may feel like you’re trapped. You aren’t though. You have the choice to do what the hell you want, and just be as free as a bird is, flying all throughout the skies. You can still put roots down somewhere, but you are still able to love and experience life for what it is worth if that’s your choice. You are a queen/king, after all. Everything in your head may not be quiet either. That’s okay too – figure out how to silence your mind. I suggest meditation, because when you have the opportunity to look inward, you’re able to try and tap into the root of some of your problems. This could be very beneficial for you in many ways.

You may be feeling a bit stagnant right now, or a bit frazzled. That’s okay. Just remember that you have a choice to not feel that way, and you know what it takes in order for you to feel much more at peace and move forward to a place of serenity. You could put down roots and that helps you settle down. That could alleviate some of the noise in your brain. You could also distract yourself with something positive for you. These are all suggestions to help you lead a healthier, better life.

Take some time to think about yourself, and give yourself a little love for what you have accomplished today. Envision what all parts of life look like for you, and whether you choose to be free as a bird and play, or fly south for the winter. It’s really a daily choice in regards to what you choose to feel. You’re in control of that, and you can experience all of those emotions. You just need to determine what’s best for you in the grand scheme of things, and how you truly want to feel.

Be present in where you are right now, and where you’re going. You’ll see things manifest for you if you focus your intentions and energy where you visualize yourself being as I’ve stated before. You don’t have to live in that disquiet at all unless you choose to. Everything is your own personal choice. Choose what’s best for you.

Press on, my friends. You’re doing great.

Amen. Asé.

-gg