birth.

new energy surges through us when we allow ourselves to be vessels to do such. we have officially entered 2019, which i’m deeming the year of creativity and balance. some of us may come up with new year’s resolutions or some of us come up with themes (my partner refers to his years having overall themes to them and i totally accepted his POV) and i realize that when you set an intention and a thought towards something, it has the ability to manifest within a timeline that you may not be able to pinpoint.

this last year, i wrote down a couple of goals for the year. ever since 2016 going into 2017 (i may have done it in the past, but never wrote it down), i decided that i would take time in order to write down the things that i wanted to manifest for the year/themes i wanted to follow towards my true desires. coming from the annals of my journal:

“trust my intuition. spirit resides deep inside me and my intuition has served me right. i have a lot to offer the world and that intuitive nature will save me beautifully”

this is the year i really got into tarot pulls. you may have had a tarot pull done by me, or you may have seen my posts about them or the energy i was receiving that day. seems like this one was marked off pretty well.

“stick to my word to myself. keep your integrity to yourself especially when it matters to your own growth. when you feel the need to work, work. when you feel the urge to write, write. when you think about what makes you happy, do it. don’t let life just pass you by anymore. you belong in this world and you will find the path that brings you utter joy soon.”

this one is interesting because this year, i learned who i was and how to say ‘no’ to things i didn’t want to do. as a natural people pleaser, i tend to take other peoples’ opinions to heart and don’t want to do anything that is beside them or makes them feel uncomfortable. this year, i said fuck that. i completely decided to stay in MY lane. do what was right for ME. i didn’t 100% get over the whole “not letting other people influence my decisions” thing but i definitely let go of the reins a bit. i started this blog this year. i started my video channel too. i took 8 weeks of unpaid leave at work because of health issues and had to get better. i’m still finding the path, but at the same time the brush on it has kinda been swept away a bit and the path is becoming clearer.

the magic in writing these things down and having them to go back to is powerful – i believe that 1) how you start your year (meaning what type of event do you attend, you chilling at home, you blacked out somewhere) and 2) how you prepare for it are the ways that dictate what the year gives. this past year, i think i was asleep, woke up at home in my bed right before the ball drop and then ki’d on Twitter. i was on Twitter a LOT this year and i was at home IN MY BED a lot this year. however, this year i chilled elsewhere with some pretty nice vibes, had my first real ‘new year’s kiss’ and got some rest. and the energy the next day felt like it was a dervish of light. and i got to do what i wanted, which was sit, play games with my friends online, sleep, eat and watch Survivor.

i’ve got good vibes about this year and i send them all to you that read. remember that it’s important to have a driving force as to where you want to go. you have to have gas in the tank in order for shit to pop off. if you don’t fill the tank with gas, the car will never start or it won’t get to where you’re trying to get. make sure that you keep all this in mind as we walk into the beast that is 2019. energy shows that doing this and having it ready by the 5th is when it’s going to stick at its highest vibration because of the eclipse. SHE READY! it’s gonna be a wild ride but i know that at the end of this year, i won’t be even able to take myself.

amen. asé.

-gg

Tarot Pull – 8.10.18 – Elebba/Eleguá/Eleggua

Happy Friday, friends, spristas, and family! Today is the day before the New Moon, which is in Leo and it’s a Super New Moon. There is also a partial Solar Eclipse happening, and this all goes down tomorrow early in the morning at 5:57 AM. As a Scorpio, I’m taking my time to rest and just prepare for all of the shit that is about to go down tomorrow to essentially be the final chapter of what we have been experiencing. I’m ready for a restart in so many ways, and know I am in control along with my Higher Power to usher in that energy. Remember, there are legit six planets in retrograde currently (Mars, Saturn, Neptune, Pluto, Mercury, and now Uranus as of this week) so if you have been feeling all over the place emotionally, don’t think that it’s just because of you being crazy. The Universe and the cosmos are literally all over the place right now. If you have been seeing old things/issues come to the surface, and you’ve been trying to start anew or make amends to things, this is the perfect time to make sure that you prepare intentions for this new phase in your life and what you want to see happening. Lessons are wrapping up, and you have the ability to create and manifest what you want to see actually happening in your life, and leave all that other mess at the door.

The New Moon in Leo will truly make you focus on what makes you happy, and allow you to do that final work in reflection on what routines, habits, and actions you need to take in order to function at your personal best. It’s truly a time to let go of the past, and look towards the future, remembering that everything can change at the drop of a dime if you make the efforts to do such with a positive mindset. Remember that post on motivation I had? This is an optimal time to finishing figuring out what doors you want to close, and what roads you want to open towards your path to happiness, success, and your own personal truth. Things will start to become even more clearer to you than ever before, so take heed as to what your intuition is leading you to, and how you feel in any and all situations. Since this is a Super New Moon, it’s gonna be wild, so hold onto your socks!

Today’s tarot pull is SUPER timely, and I find it interesting that it’s what I pulled today because of what is happening around me personally, and happening with the Universe tomorrow. Today, I pulled the card Elebba/Eleggua.

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“Eleggua is the patron of all doors and of all roads. Therefore the magical keys to open the most inviolable locks and the permits to walk the different paths that humanity will travel belong to him.”

In the title, you may notice that I referenced this card many a ways. Dependent upon the background that one may understand the Orishas, Elebba/Eleggua/Eleguá may be spelled differently, but it all means the same thing. He is the one that is the door opener, and the one that opens new paths towards what is designed for you. Most people who practice Santería, Candomblé, or Palo Mayombe believe him to be the “master of force”, and you must have his approval before moving down the path that you seek. He is the protector of villages and cities and towns, and his image is to be placed behind or close to the entrance of the house. If you think about it, your comings in and goings out have to be blessed in order to manifest the dreams and truth that you want.

This morning during my dice divination, I rolled a 3 and a 6. This just shows me that I’m right where the energy needs to be, as I continue pulling info from my companion booklet.

“He is made up of the soil of three or seven crossroads, water from three or seven rivers, rain collected three or seven times during the third or seventh month or in three or seven months of the year…etc.” I think that this three that I rolled shows that he’s present in this reading and telling me and you all that the roads are here to be walked down. I think of some personal doors that I am opening and working on, and how motivated I’ve been feeling for a change or for something new and exciting to be a part of my path. This just soothes my spirit, knowing that everything that is happening right now is coming in divine timing. I also think of what doors I’ve been working on closing lately, and how that has been helping me to be a better person and feel in a much better space.

Have you gotten a new job lately? Have you been feeling a push towards tackling a new venture? Have you been given a job promotion, or found a new passion in doing something? This could be because the energies around you are supporting you in feeling this. Don’t sleep on this energy – go with it, but don’t tire yourself out from it. Be patient with yourself – it’s all coming together.

The meaning of this card is related to jobs, mainly. “There will be progress in one’s work or job. Abundant productivity. Profitable advertising campaign; your message will be well-received. Tempting and practicable offers. Vitality.”

This is super exciting for me to pull and show you all today because it means that there is something coming that is amazing. The work that you have been putting in is coming to pass, and the Universe is going to give you great karma back if you have been giving the best of yourself to it.

Personally, I know that I have been staying motivated with writing here as much as possible, trying to stay on top of other goals that I have (and I also just finished this super awesome goals worksheet from my girlfriend, Destiny, that helped me to focus on getting in the gym and holding myself accountable for it – you should check her current site out and her new site dropping next month!!!). I have also just thinking about how all of what I’m doing and the energy I’m putting out is being received, first for myself, and then in light of what I want to see manifest in my life even further. As an empath, I’m always thinking of others, and I want to continue to be and shed that light for others, so I do this to help you all get closer towards your personal immaculate design.

This is also perfect timing because lots of doors that were open in my life that weren’t healthy for me are closing, and I’m seeing some of the mental emotional changes that I have been having. If you don’t know, I have had a tumultuous relationship with alcohol for the past …probably 10 years, and I’ve been getting the help that I need to make sure that I stay sober. It hasn’t been an easy road, but I’ve been taking the steps to realize that every day is a step towards a healthy life, and I’m working towards building even stronger relationships in my sobriety. I’m grateful for the work I have done and even though every day isn’t perfect, I’m sober and it’s progress, not perfection.

I know that the sacrifices that I am making and the intentions I am setting to lead a healthier, happier, more honest life are going to be momentous for me and others around me, and I send so much loving energy to you all as we transition into these new astrological moments coming forward.

Are you seeing some of your past doors closing? Are you ensuring that you’re doing work to keep them closed, and thanking yourself for working daily towards seeing what you want to see manifest itself? Remember that you are human and that you are not perfect – it’s all a process, and it all will come to pass if you allow it to. All you can do is just do your best on a regular basis in order to welcome that positivity and that energy. Allow yourself to be supported. Be patient.

I’m so ready for tomorrow – it feels like it’ll be the final exam for me before I start to see my new life completely manifesting itself the way I want to see it happening. Today, I plan on doing some vision setting. I would suggest you take some time to do this today or before Sunday. My birthday is a little less than two and a half months away, and I think this is the perfect time to envision what I want to see happening within the last couple of months before I turn 29. If I spend my time focusing my energy towards that today, who knows what will actually happen during that timeframe? You can never get too early a head start on your own spiritual awakening and your own graciousness coming to pass. I feel like the death of an old Gangsta Gurry has happened, and a new G is being reborn again. And I’m fucking with that energy.

I want you to stay hydrated today, stay positive, stay aligned, and be thankful for what you have accomplished thus far. Focus on what you can be grateful for today, and what has changed this year for you for the positive. There are so many little things you can be grateful for, and the more you welcome that energy into your life the more you’ll be able to manifest the life that you want.

Shine on, my friends.

Asé. Amen.

-gg

You ‘Bout Dat Life?

“We must’nt let our dreams die in the daylight because we lose focus while responding to the world’s lame interests or false emergencies.” – Brendon Burchard, The Motivation Manifesto.

Happy Lionsgate Portal everyone! I hope that each of you are feeling free today, and have been able to release some of the energy that has been plaguing you recently, and have allowed love to enter your atmosphere. Before I begin talking about today’s subject that’s lying on my heart, I want to address the Lionsgate Portal.

Today’s Lionsgate Portal always happens around this time of year, and it’s mainly focused on allowing yourself to open your heart, your eyes, and feel safe with doing such. For me, I interpret it as allowing yourself to be vulnerable, so that others can be vulnerable. You’re probably in the midst of going through some really tough lessons, or rehashing prior lessons that you thought you had already moved past coming back into your spirit. Being aware of your heart chakra and third eye chakra and loving yourself and loving others is extremely important on today, and moving forward. If you haven’t already, take some time for focusing on what the idea of love is to you, and whether or not you truly love yourself and love others around you, even if they have done you wrong. We were all put on this planet in order to spread love and connect, and as social media, differences, and society naturally try to pit us against one another, I want you to take a second and focus on whether or not you are leading with love on today. It’s our job as a human race to leave this planet better than the way that we found it, and every day, with what’s going on around us, it feels harder. You, however, have the capacity to create a space for love and light, and radiate that no matter where you go. Whether that means thanking someone for their services at a restaurant, smiling at a stranger in the streets as you pass them, or just being a listening ear for a friend that really needs to vent, you can make a choice to be full of love and compassion towards another. Everyone’s journey in life is different, and everyone deserves to be showered with love no matter what is going on in your world, or theirs.

Another huge part of this portal is making sure to cover and cleanse your cerebellum chakra. I’m sure you’re like, what the hell is that? Well, it’s located on the back of your neck, right beneath your hairline. Take some time today to let warm water rinse along the back of it, use some essential oils, and massage the back of your neck and recite this mantra that I so graciously was able to learn about from Forever Conscious, a site I visit regularly when I’m trying to be spiritually fed. (Thank you guys, if you ever see my site!)

“It is safe for me to open my heart, it is safe for me to open my eye. It is safe for me to lean into all that I feel. For when I do, I find my strength, I find my truth, and I find what I’m guided to do.”

All of this transitions into the topic that I wanted to talk about, and that is motivation. The last part of the mantra I stated, about finding what you are guided to do, is directly connected to this topic of motivation and doing what you feel passionately led to do.

Today, I decided to take some time to disconnect from everything. I left my phone at home and took a walk in nature for about two hours alone, not having any distractions. It was quite the time, because I was able to just enjoy and listen to the sounds of nature and what was going on around me. I smiled at waitresses and started conversation, I ventured into new stores I hadn’t ever ventured into, and just allowed myself to go wherever my feet led me. I found myself in this really awesome store in my neighborhood where I found some really awesome essential oils, sage, and other really awesome products called Life Wellness. I found it ironic that while I was there and speaking to the cashier and checking out the products, she had checked the time on her phone and 2:22 brightly popped up. It just affirmed that I was in the right place at the right time. Whenever I see “angel numbers” or repeated numbers (11:11, 1:11, 12:34, 3:33, 5:55, 7:11), it’s a sign that I’m in tune with the Universe’s energy and I’m right where I need to be at the right time. I took some time to sit at the store and write and just think about what was going on in my life and how grateful I am to be doing some more of the things that motivate me and make me happy, such as going to that store and getting these items that helped rejuvenate my spirit.

After leaving, I wanted to take some time to sit and read. I’ve been reading this book called “The Motivation Manifesto: 9 Declarations to Claim Your Personal Power” by Brendon Burchard for quite some time. It’s been taking me a long time to read the book because literally every page in the book scalps me bald. It’s just such a good read and really makes me sit and reflect, even after reading 10 pages. While reading today, I came across the topic of being motivated to do things, and truly resonating in what is important to you when it comes to putting in that work towards your goals. We all have dreams and desires that we want to see come to pass, but a lot of times, we get caught up in the worry about not getting the results that we want immediately, and that slows us down in regards to the process it takes to get there. It is as if our motivation depletes because we think about the work that goes into getting what we desire, and we may think it too hard or too time consuming.

Now, I want to push your thinking a bit. If you’re really motivated to do something and you truly want something to be a part of your aura and energy, do you ever really get tired of doing what it takes to get there?

I’ll give you a personal example. I joined a gym in early July because I really have been wanting to get a nice body. What was my motivation for joining the gym? Well, I can’t sit here and fake – I see everyone and their tight bodies all over Instagram and Twitter, flaunting their booty cheeks and bodies everywhere, trying to get #summerready or have that #foreverbody, and it makes me want the same. I’ve struggled with body dysmorphia for the past 7 years, and a lot of times, social media has made me feel insecure with how I look. Even when I was at my smallest, which was around 127 pounds (I’m about 5’6″) last summer, I still felt like I was imperfect and that I had things I could do better with my body. Now, I wasn’t in the best place mentally nor health wise, and was starving myself, and I lost that weight unintentionally. Now, I’ve put on weight and I’m still a bit insecure when it comes to how I look, and I joined the gym because at the time, I was motivated to get the body that I always wanted. Here’s an insider secret:

I hate the fuckin’ gym. I hate working out. Why? I just really hate sweating and it’s a commitment that you have to make that I haven’t fully invested myself in yet. I can truly own that, and I haven’t also been making it a true habit in order to go to the gym because I lack the mental focus and desire to be there every day or even every other day at this point. That’s a fault of mine, and today’s reading made me sit back and assess whether or not having a dream body was a true dream of mine, or if it was something I was doing just to please other people and myself. I definitely want to be healthier, but I have to make sure that I make it a habit to take care of myself, and remember the reason why I do what I do in order to have results. It’s all about refocusing my mind and desires, and knowing that the work that I put in will have results as long as I stay consistent and remember that the end goal will be worth it when I actually recalibrate the reason why I want to have a better body.

I want to have a better body, better eating habits, and better overall lifestyle because it’ll help me to feel more grounded as a whole: mind, body, and spirit. This is a refocus of mine that I’m working on, and I’ve lacked motivation because I haven’t grounded myself in the “why” completely. One of my dreams is to have a nice little chest for me to be able to look at in the mirror and feel good about, but I also have to remember that my body is my temple and I need to take care of it daily in order for it to be around for years to come. Refocusing my thinking is so important, and when I remember that that is the motivation, I can get in the gym and be good to go. I also have to remember that I don’t need to PUSH myself everyday while I’m at the gym. Me getting there at this point is half the battle, and every time that I’ve pushed myself to go the gym against my desire to be there, I’ve felt good after leaving because I’ve accomplished something. I hate the cheesy quote, but it’s true: “Rome wasn’t built in a day.” This forever body won’t be built in a day either, and I have to remember that consistent work towards my goal is what is the most important to gaining what I want. I also have to remember my “why”, and I have to remember to motivate myself to remember that my “why” is that I want to be around on this Earth as long as the Universe will let me be, and my Higher Power will allow me to be here. I can assist in this by making sure I’m taking care of my temple as best as possible.

I want to compare this motivation for going to the gym with another motivation of mine: up-keeping this blog and writing in it consistently.

Daily, I find so much passion in writing in this blog. I find so much joy doing this work, and having people read the posts that I write. I wake up in the morning, excited to curate something new. A passion of mine is becoming a published author, and I know that through the practice of writing daily, it’s a great way for me to get closer to my goals. I also know that I stay motivated to write daily because it’s such a beautiful release for me, and I’m motivated because I know other people potentially can get something from my writing. I do this writing for me, first and foremost, but am grateful when others can gain something from the information and vulnerability that I share that other folks may struggle to. I love the idea of human connection, and if I’m the person that can keep it real and be the light for someone else, it legitimately makes me smile and feel like I’m shining and moving in my purpose. My motivation for keeping this blog full of posts and work is simple: I have a bigger goal in mind and I know that every day is a process and it’s something that I love doing. I have a clear vision as to my “why” when it comes to writing, and this is what keeps me invested in continuing to create daily, whether it’s something huge or not. Now, if only I were able to transfer this into me wanting to go to the gym…

But wait. I can. I have the choice to do such if I remember to motivate myself and do what I can slowly but surely. I look at me getting out into the world, walking around and getting fresh air for two hours as my exercise for the day. I mean, I was sweating like a pig, and if you know me personally, you know that I barely like to leave my house in the first place. So for me, to get out of the house and do something in the streets was a push for me. Baby steps. And this is something I can transfer to getting into the gym, watching what I eat, and staying healthy.

Maybe you’re trying to figure out how to be more motivated. You can’t hope for motivation, but you have to choose an ambition to be motivated for. You have to be rooted in your why, and not get distracted by other things that take you away from doing what needs to be done. You have to make choices that sustain the desire to keep going. This may be you enlisting someone else to make sure that they help you stay on top of tasks that you truly want to do. Sometimes, looking at it on a sticky note that you put on your wall and seeing that as your motivation regularly is just as important to have as a reminder. You have to have focus on what you want to achieve, because without focus, you will lack results. This goes back to the quote that I stated at the beginning. You can’t take your eyes off your goals and wait for the “right time” to start. Every day is not promised, and I want you to remember that. But every day that you have breath in your body, it’s an opportunity for you to be able to stay motivated and allow your desires to come to fruition if you are dedicated to it.

If you’re trying to become a YouTube star, an actor, a singer, or even the CEO of your own company, you have to stay motivated to do the work and have people in your corner that can assist you in keeping yourself accountable. People always won’t be there to hold you accountable, so you have to hold yourself accountable for your actions and your motivation first. If it’s something that truly matters to you, you’ll figure out a way to make something happen every day, little by little. Motivation only feels fickle to those that aren’t attentive to their ambitions and what they desire. Sometimes, you just have to set your goals daily and visualize what you want your end goal to be. The more effort you put into visualizing and internalizing what your end goal to be, the more you are able to see it come to pass.

Take some time today to think about what you truly want out of your life and go within. Ask yourself what you want for yourself and what new goal would be meaningful for you. What gives you excitement when it comes to learning or giving, and what great adventure do you dream of? What will push me out of bed each morning? When you can tap into those things and figure out what they are, and hold yourself accountable, knowing that the path won’t be easy, the more you are going to be able to get closer to your goals. It’s all about having faith, and expecting that it will happen no matter what because day by day, you’re making things happen. You may have to ask for help, but as long as you stay persistent in your pursuits, you’ll be good to go.

Visualize your goals, and internalize what it will take for you to get yourself where you want to be. Believe in yourself that your desires will happen. I know I believe in you, if you don’t think anyone else does. Your dreams will become a reality over time as long as you see yourself gaining what you want to see at the forefront of your life. And remember that every day is a step in the right direction as long as you continue to work towards your goals. 

Maybe you should take some time to journal about some of the things that I pushed you to read about today. Fixate on a dream and believe that it will see the daylight soon. Don’t take your eyes off your goals, and continue to do what’s necessary along the way to get one step closer.

“It is the obvious equation and the ultimate secret; the deeper and longer I give attention to my ambition and passions, the more motivation I feel.”

Stay up, stay motivated, and stay connected to your “why” on today. Are you really about that life? If you are, get to work.

Amen. Asé.

-gg