intuition says ‘yes’

intuition is a son of a bitch, and i mean that in the most loving way either. when you learn to listen to that gut feeling, it really just serves you some shit up on a silver platter that you never expect. sometimes, the end goal is not what was necessarily planned…but that’s okay. you get the clarity that you need in some way. that intuition doesn’t kick in unless you trust yourself. do you? what do you truly think about yourself? If you don’t answer quickly with a loving response, let’s take a step back and figure out why?

what thought patterns are hindering you from being able to see yourself at your highest self right now? why are you so critical of things that others probably aren’t as critical of you of? rest assured, i can tell you…whatever you’re pressed as a panini about right now isn’t going to matter in the grand scheme of things. trust & believe. you are creating a mountain out of a molehill right now, and you need to tighten it up and remember that nothing is actually wrong with you, what you think, how you move, all of that. other people feel resistance to your freedom because they don’t know how to function in the same way that you do. and is it their job to do so? absolutely not. that resistance creates judgment and then judgment creates a lack of inertia when it comes to your dreams, desires and your moves. you tend to shell up and falter in ways that aren’t necessary for you to do because of another’s input.

set yourself free, beloved.

shucking and jiving in a way that’s authentic to you serves you and brings you joy in ways you would have never imagined. that clarity and peace that courses through you is unmatched. personally, since this journey with ramadan beginning there has been such a level of clarity and stuff that i have been grateful for. the prayers, the fasting (even though i’ve had to modify it because of my health and stuff), the thoughts and the vulnerability that comes with it. . . is unmatched. it’s made a lot of things concrete for me that i may have had questions or inklings about and has blessed me in a variety of ways that i couldn’t even begin to explain. for that alone, i am grateful beyond measure. the journey of self-exploration, faith and security is a tumultuous yet beneficial one and i implore you to try it out.

you have so many keys to so many doors. it’s time to catch your deliverance.

amen. asé.

-gg

Tell Me.

Everything is connected when you think about it. Intuition and guidance from our higher selves helps us to stay grounded when it comes to us making decisions that we aren’t sure are the best things for us. Have you ever just listened to your body and what it is telling you in any moment?

Well, welcome to Scorpio season. I know that because it’s my birthday season, I’m starting to feel those answers slowly but surely coming to me and life has been leading me up until this point. We have been constantly ever evolving if we are willing to do so, but that takes a lot of reflection upon oneself in order to make that happen. What I have realized is that people that are not functioning at their highest selves and are on a lower plane are the ones that have a hard time opening themselves up to something different. You have to trust your own balance beam and know that things come to you, situations come to your forefront, and everything is divine in its own right. Do you remember that conversation with your boss that made you think about something that you know wasn’t really rocking with your inner vision, and made you think about something else you wanted in your life? Do you remember the time that your partner said something to you that turned you off, and you were a little apprehensive to approach it, knowing it was a trigger? All these things are part of our shadow selves, trying to rise to the surface and allow you to make the movements, choices, and decisions that are going to help you be successful.

You are a beautiful being that is allowed to make beautiful decisions and position yourself in a space of growth, but you have to be willing to do so. That takes work. Being comfortable and letting yourself not be pushed is the first push towards your grave. You are not trying to become better, and you’re just ignoring what Spirit is trying to lead you towards.

I can be a great example of what it means to just not allow myself to listen to the signs, even when they’re apparent, and how it’s caused me to be depressed or a bit harder on myself than necessary. Let the Spirit tell you how you want to love, how you want to live, how you want to progress. You have to trust that we were all born with an intuition that is strong, but those that are willing to strengthen the muscle are the ones that actually benefit from listening to self – those are the ones that actually make the growth towards the space that they are trying to be.

Let go.

Let yourself be.

Don’t overthink everything.

It doesn’t serve your highest good to overanalyze everything.

See it all from a different angle, and let your angels and your Ancestors guide the path. Salvation is coming.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Runaway

“A better future can be imagined for segments of time, but it is only in this time that a better future can be built.” – Brendon Burchard

When it comes to examining what is happening in your life, do you face challenges head on or do you tend to run away from them? Have you been in a space of daydreaming so much about what is going to happen in your future that you haven’t taken a bit of time to be present figure out what is happening right around you? Are you present? *knocks on your head*

I ask all these questions because it’s natural to have an aversion to really digging deep into certain challenges. We all have lives that have had some sort of experience with pain, trauma, unhappiness, or misalignment. These experiences have the ability to hinder us from pushing forward in times that are necessary for us to weather the storm…and this comes mainly out of in the form of fear. We think about the lives that we want to have, and want these things to come to pass without really thinking about the work that goes into it. You may not have the answer completely as to what you have a question about, but what you do know is that you have a question.

I know that I have been thinking about mind mapping things out that will help me to achieve the life that I have wanted in a way. Personally, I have been feeling somewhat outside of my own body lately. While sitting in therapy (yes, I am in therapy and therapy is good for you as much as your family may try and think that God is the only one that can fix all your problems) and was explaining how I’ve just been feeling outside of myself in terms of the things that I’m doing and not feeling complete and like I’m present in everything I do. The worst thing someone can do is go through life just for the sake of going through life without any answers or understanding as to why they do what they do and facing their challenges. He asked me to describe why I felt that way, and I struggled for a bit to explain where those feelings were coming from.

After sitting for a bit, I realized that everything that I have been doing is not aligning completely with what I want for myself, and some of the actions that I have been taking don’t necessarily feel like actions that I want to partake in. One of them is a new endeavor that requires me to be somewhere literally every night…and I have NOT been going as frequently as asked to be there. As an introvert (and also still working in education), I am completely DRAINED at the end of my workday even though it has been cut by a couple of hours. It’s also just not my cup of tea, and I’ve been having a hard time admitting that just because it works for others a certain way, I’m not everyone else and it doesn’t work out for me the same way. This isn’t me being rebellious or not ‘trying’ – this is just me being real as hell. Then, I’m supposed to be at these meetings with these strangers at times, and it really isn’t somewhere I want to be. I find it to be a challenge to be there every day in a different setting, not knowing who I am going to run into and I HATE making small talk or trying to connect to people in that space. It’s felt very inauthentic to who I am as a person and doesn’t feel like it resonates with who I am. It’s been a challenge because I have been running away from doing what is ‘suggested to me’ in order for me to gain the mental clarity that “they say” I need in order to progress in sobriety.

After that, I’ve been having this guilt about not going to the gym as I talked about trying to achieve my “forever body” a couple of posts ago, and realized that the intention behind me going to the gym was only because I was trying to prepare myself for Survivor over the summer. I also used to venture to the gym alone, and even with a friend…I don’t think I would enjoy it. It would make me feel good I went…but that was only because I know that I was paying that monthly fee and I’m glad I put that money to good use.

However, I came to the conclusion as I spoke that my journey is not like everyone else’s and the way that I feel is valid. I have realized that the way I get to the place that I want to be doesn’t have to look like how someone else has gotten there and I have to be okay with that. I have control over some things in my life (not all, which as a Scorpio is a hard thing to admit), and I should be able to manifest some form of happiness even in those challenges in a way that doesn’t have to be completely COMFORTABLE, but also shouldn’t heighten my anxiety. I have to believe that even though my journey to happiness on my own terms isn’t impossible, and I do believe that. I believe that breakthroughs are meant to come my way (and your way also) when you let down the walls of what you believe should happen, and take action towards just choosing to BE and stand in FAITH that whatever is going to come your way will come, even if it seems like a difficult challenge to face. You also have to remember that authenticity and tenacity are key.

I realized that me being in the gym was just because of me seeing others in the gym and having the bodies that I have wanted to have for such a long time. I know that that takes work, but that doesn’t mean that it has to be achieved the same way that it’s been achieved by others. I actually signed up for yoga classes this week, because that has been something that I’ve been wanting to do, and know that even though they may not have the same physical results as the gym would for those gym heads, that’s not the type of way I want to achieve the body I’m looking to have. I think about this as not running away from my challenge, but maneuvering differently around it and figuring out how to make it work for me the way I want to make it work for me.

I quoted the quote earlier because the future is able to be built in the present. I can’t just dream about it and imagine that it’s going to just come to pass. As stated before, work has to be put in in order to acquire what you desire. The way that that can be done is ever changing – it is necessary to make sure the intention behind it is pure and also soul-filling in the way that you want it to be. If you do something out of spite or feeling obligated to, chances are you will not perform it to the best of your ability or the way that you initially intended it to happen. You can’t avoid what reality is in the moment – it’s so tempting to run away and hide from what you don’t want to face. But where does that really get you in the end? Free and motivated people do not avoid reality – they face it head on and make shit crack the way they’re supposed to. It doesn’t have to always be flowers and candy and lollipops…sometimes, it’s going to be raindrops, drop tops, and hot boxes.

Okay, not really, but you get what I mean.

When you meet your challenge head-on, you find success. So instead of running away from the challenge, find a way to outsmart it and pivot so that way, you can avoid blocking your blessing and getting to the space you want to see yourself at.

Think of ways that you can go into this week facing your difficulties head-on, and then reflect on what you were able to learn from having to confront those hard situations. I bet you’ll come out on the other side with a level of wisdom that you never thought you would truly have. We’re about to exit Virgo season soon and enter Libra season, and things will start to make more sense and chill out for you. You won’t be as high strung and you’ll actually be able to enjoy life and the challenges it throws at you. You’ll be able to handle them with ease.

Just keep floating, as they say. And remember, running away from your problems never answers them. It just leaves the problems at your doormat for you to have to answer them later on down the road…and who wants to be bothered with old shit minutes, hours, days, weeks, months from now? Just go ahead, do the work, build the future you want, and stop being a little bitch about it by avoiding the things you need to do. *insert black emoji shrug here* and I say that from the most loving place ever.

Go into this week with power, and run forward instead of running away.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

The Voice Inside

Happy Friday to everyone reading! I don’t know where this post is going, but I’m going to speak about intuition and how it’s led me to do certain things, act certain ways, and how it can be a barometer for you in your life. In terms of being intuitive, I believe that this is something that comes from a gut feeling. We are spiritual beings as humans, and there is a spirit that rests within our soul that tells us how to respond to things, even if we don’t recognize it. A great quote from one of my favorite shows, Survivor, comes from Kellyn Bechtold in this past season of Survivor: Ghost Island. A question was posed to her on whether or not she makes decisions using her head or her heart. She responded with her gut leading her to make decisions, and that’s the combination of her using her head and her heart in conjunction with one another to lead her down the way to make a decision.

Now, sometimes, intuition can lead us into situations that don’t always seem flavorful in the moment, but this doesn’t mean that it doesn’t impact us in some sort of way. It also takes a lot of practice to follow your intuition and tap into knowing what is right and what is wrong. I believe it to be a mixture of you following what you know is right in your head, and what is right in your heart, plus that feeling inside of you that just tells you when to go to a certain place, or when to avoid a certain situation. This can come into play in a multitude of ways, on a number of levels.

I’ll give you a personal example. One day, heading home from work, I was hungry. The bus passes by this restaurant that I love going to, and I had something in my gut tell me to not go there. I didn’t know why my intuition was telling me not to go here – I mean, it’s just food? Yeah, I could save the amount of money I was spending there and get something cheaper to eat, but I just didn’t think like that. I just went there anyway. I only had my cards on me, and no cash, and this place doesn’t have an ATM machine. Ironically enough, their machines were down, meaning that they could only take cash. I wasn’t about to spend my time going to find cash just to eat there, so I went on about my life. That’s a moment where I realized that my intuition was trying to tell me something, but I let my head get in the way, because I tried to rationalize with myself that I was just overthinking things.

Your intuition can also lead you out of dangerous situations that can be harmful for you. One evening, I was invited to go to a party where there was going to be a bunch of ‘vices’ that could have threatened my sobriety in a sense. I followed my intuition and stayed at home instead, and decided to make a spiritual bath instead. I felt this feeling of calm and love for self that I knew I needed to just take care of self, and stay at home. I felt so much more at peace, and even though I was missing some of my friends at this party, I knew that I was saving myself from a situation that could have been potentially harmful for me. What I’ve noticed is that following your intuition for the most part feels GOOD. You start to feel like your vibration is raised and you are connected to the Universe and what it wants you to notice.

You may be wondering how you tap into this. First, you need to believe that you have a strong intuition in order to receive these intuitive messages. You are receiving guidance every minute of the day, but you have to determine whether or not that is based on fear or love. You need to remember that your soul has a voice and the voice is your inner guide and teacher, and wants nothing more than the best for you. You have to allow your ego to get out of the way in order for your intuition to speak to you clearly.

Kyle Gray, who I’ve referred to before states in his book that I’ve referenced before “Raise Your Vibration” that “If you hear a voice telling you to do something and in so many days, weeks or months you’ll see the results, this is the ego speaking. If you hear a voice telling you that if you don’t make a certain change or do a particular thing you’ll have bad luck, you’ll fail, you’ll get fat and ugly and you’ll be a reject, then this is the ego too. The voice of your soul will always speak in the present tense. It will speak to you in a loving way and it will always point out how far you’ve come, the gifts that you have and tell you that you have more strength than you know. The voice of your soul doesn’t always have a plan but will remind you that if you take a step forwards the Universe will present the next step to you. It encourages you to take a leap of faith, knowing that you will be caught by your angels and guides.”

Remember that our inner selves are love. Your intuition and your soul only wants the best for you and only wants to spread love for you on your path towards your own spiritual growth. You should always have a loving conversation with yourself and ask your soul to speak to you loud and clear. Ask your angel guides to help you tap into the guidance you have in your soul, and thank your soul for being such a great teacher so that you can follow your heart’s true desires and take steps towards living life the way you want to: filled with a true sense of purpose and connection, and with some sort of style and grace. If you ask your soul to allow you this amount of willingness and guidance, there’s no reason why you shouldn’t be able to be at your best self.

This morning, I had a meeting that I had planned on going to, but my intuition told me to take a chill pill and do this instead. This weekend, I’ll be going camping (more details on where and why to come soon) and I will be following my intuition and using a lot of logic in order to ensure that I am in the safest place possible. I ask that while I am away, you all work on speaking to your soul and allowing your intuition to guide you in the direction that is best fit for you. (Also, send me some positive vibes. I haven’t been camping in almost 3 years so this should be an experience!) You’ll know what that means and what that sounds like. Just trust yourself, first and foremost. All you have is you, and your soul knows what it’s like to have integrity and purpose. Revel in that, and have a blessed weekend.

Choose to listen to the voice of your soul.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Tarot Pull – 8.11.18 – Salamanders

Happy Super New Moon in Leo and Partial Solar Eclipse, guys! Today has been a day of intuition and circumstance for me, and I’ve spent a lot of it doing things and decluttering my physical space in a way that can make room for something newer and bigger to enter my life. I know a lot of my friends said they spent their day feeling tired or feeling frantic, and if this was you today, know that this is normal. Today is the first day of that energy being let out into the Universe, and it’ll start to ease itself away from you as time goes on. Be focused on the fact that this is the first step into a new you. You have the power to make whatever you want to see happen, and rest is important when it comes to your own personal self-work. You can’t go a mile a minute and not take a moment for self – you also shouldn’t feel guilty about it either. I’ve been learning that day by day, and starting to feel less and less guilty about my insular moments, or when I feel like my emotions are off-kilter. I just go into spaces where I can recenter myself, and feel like the work I’m doing or the spaces I enter are the best for me and where I want my energy to be.

I spent this morning hearing some wonderful stories about the shortcomings people have overcome, and then had some time to visit an old coworker from my very first job in New York. It’s always nice to be able to reconnect with people from your past that will always have a special place in your heart. What was great about this interaction today was that I was gifted with something small I asked the Universe for a while ago. I’d been looking for a new tote bag, because the one that I have is cool, but I wanted something a bit cooler and nicer.

Today, my former coworker, who is really into music and art (that’s how we bonded, plus he is a Scorpio so we got that same kinda energy) has been in the process of getting rid of a lot of things that didn’t serve him. He gifted me with a painting he made of Marion Brown, a jazz artist, and it was something to add to my space. What’s funny is I have been seeing a lot of people post about new artwork they had been buying for their apartment, and I have never been a huge person to have artwork. Well, as of today, I have a new authentic painting of Marion Brown from a friend of mine who actually has a great eye for art, and a brand new tote bag because I had to find a way to carry it home in the rain. He also gifted me with a brand new sweater, and these really cool glasses that he can’t use anymore, but make me look like an even badder bitch.

He’s also a musician, and you can check out his work here – he goes by the stage name Luke Ferrari and he gave me this really awesome pin that I put onto one of my hats. His work is super dope, and takes me back to a really special place that reminds me of the type of music I listened to growing up – a mixture of rock and euphoric music. It was a rainy day here in New York, and getting to vibe out with him was great.

Afterwards, I had come home to figure out where to put the painting. I had to declutter a bit of my space, and I started going through old paperwork and things from past jobs that I knew I didn’t need anymore. It felt like I was seeing old lifestyles and spaces that I used to inhabit coming back out at me, and ripping up those papers and getting rid of them was freeing. It also allowed me to declutter my energetic space, and make more room for the things that are important to me and give my apartment a bit more panache.

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Then, I made a spiritual bath for myself (if you want to know more about that, you should submit a question/comment so I can explain to you what that is, and what I did to create it), ate some food, and then showered and doused myself in the spiritual bath. I felt very clean, fresh, and felt like some things that I was ushering out of my life were sealed for good after accomplishing taking that spiritual bath. Now, I’m feeling a bit tired, but relaxed. It’s just what I needed for the end of a rainy Saturday. I’ve got a couple more days before I officially start work back (not ready to enter that realm of turmoil but a bitch has to make coin), and something really exciting to look forward to this upcoming weekend before I go back. I’m grateful for all the positive energy today has brought, and how small manifestations the Universe heard were able to come to fruition without me having to spend a dime.

If you don’t know me, you don’t know that my catch phrase is “If it’s free, it’s for me.” So, anything that’s up my alley that is free is definitely what I enjoy. Also, another subset to that catch phrase is “the closer to free, the better for me”, because wherever I can cut corners to save a buck (especially these days when my money ain’t as long as it used to be), I will.

Anyways, enough about me. Let’s get into the pull for today.

Today’s pull is an elemental card called Salamanders.

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Salamanders is an elemental card from the deck that I use. A bit more about elemental cards.

“The elementals represent an evolutionary stage in the angelic scale. They represent the four elements: air, water, fire, and earth. They are the impulses that enliven the idea or conception that nothing is inert, static or motionless, but that, on the contrary, the work of God is latent in everything. The theory was conceived that there is a governing force in one of the each elements. These forces, called “elementals” were modeled according to human ideas, and they were included in artistic creations. They were present in dreams and hopes. They formed countless literary works and films, not all of them for children.”

As we see, elementals represent evolution. As today is a day where we are evolving from one stage to the next, the final stage, closing doors and opening new ones and allowing them to come to fruition, The final stage makes me think of that final boss on Sonic the Hedgehog 2 on Sega that was always hard as shit to beat as a chid for me. But, eventually, after trying many a times, I was able to succeed. I see this tarot pull as one that signifies the beginning of something new in life. As you can see on the card, the Salamanders are all represented by fire in some sense.

“In the Fire, the salamanders live, representing strength, the earth’s internal fire, the first spark that lights everything, directing this energy from the center of the earth towards the surface. They also direct the energy from the sun toward our planet, taking away shadows and darkness, which, in turn, are supported by the apprehensions and fears created by the typical insecurity of the human being.”

This word fear makes me think of a post from another friend of mine, Spirit, who has a YouTube page where she recently discussed fear the difference between rational fear and irrational fear. If you would like to understand the difference between the two and think about ways you can move past some of your irrational fears, you should give that video and her channel a look here.

I want you to sit and think about the fire in your belly that you have towards something. Is there something that’s getting in the way of you manifesting your best life? What is that, and why are you scared of moving forward? What blockages do you need to erase in order to allow that fire to come to the surface? Is there someone or something that’s got you trippin’, and you need a reset in order to come to your senses? Ponder on this right now, because the energy is telling me that it is your time to shine, but you have to tap deep down into yourself and let your insecurities melt away. Ain’t no reason for you to not be brave, bitch.

The text states, “These animals govern physiological functions, collaborating in the process of digestion and body temperature. They provide drive and courage, as well as bravery and justice. This card may represent a man or a woman in his or her forties or with much experience in life, who fights for ideals and who is a great thinker, strategist, army officer, or ruler. His or her will is strong, and he or she is dynamic and optimistic, as well as real and rational.”

We all have the ability to tap into this Universal wisdom that resides inside of us, but many of us are scared to take the leap. When was the last time you were worried to do something because of how it might come across to others? When was the last time that you allowed your lack of bravery and your lack of showing up for yourself to get in the way? There is no reason for you to let fear be your barometer. I heard this quote today and I think it’s great here – do you think there is a limousine with FEAR plastered pulls up to your house everyday, and it is your job to hop inside?

I hope you answered ‘hell the fuck no’. It’s your job to push past your worries, and remember that every opportunity and action is a lesson to push you forward. You have the earth supporting you, the Universe supporting you, but you have to remember that support comes from self first. You have strong will, and you may have needed that reminder today. Take the time now to claim your personal power, and remember that there ain’t no reason for you to not be courageous and be brave in taking on your endeavors. As long as you fight for what is idealistic for you and it doesn’t harm others, how can you lose? As long as you’re rational and think things through without being worried about every little piece, you will be fine.

I think this is perfect in terms of the energy the Universe is trying to serve us today. Remember that now is the time to pop the hell out. You deserve to. Your season is here. I want you to revel in it, and remember that your birthright is happiness, and your fire should never die. When it dies, you lose yourself, and that’s not what will help you get to the next level that you deserve to see yourself at.

Take some time to reconnect to that fire in your belly. It’s there – I can feel it from here. Use all that’s within you in order to push forward and burn the competition and those hater bitches that are in your way. And normally, those hater bitches are your inside voices telling you ‘no’. Tell them to shut the hell up, eat their food and mind their business.

I hope you guys go into the rest of the weekend in power, and remember – you can’t fail if you never try.

Amen. Asé.

-gg