Salutations. Have you ever just arisen and felt like there were messages coming from all around you? That’s the vibe that I woke up with this morning – after falling asleep super early last night, I woke up remembering a number of my dreams, which I rarely remember.
One had to deal with my mother and her commenting on my weight, and me internalizing it as her calling me fat (which I know is not true). This made me wonder about the projection I have of my own self-image and how comfortable I feel with self. Another dream had to deal with Eid, noticing that yesterday was Eid and lots of my co-workers took off, and I made up some story in my brain in regards to what happens on these days. Another dream dealt with episodes of Bad Girls Club and how that warped my brain around alcohol and standing up for myself and fighting. All these messages have forced me to think about where I am in life and what is happening.
After returning from my weekend, I feel changed. Have you ever had an experience where you felt changed, but knew that love is all around you no matter what? You are the epitome of love, and even though certain circumstances may make you feel like that doesn’t exist or it’s not what it seems, you are filled with love and meant to spread it at all times. It’s a choice on whether or not you want to. It is the one true light in your life, and you have to choose to allow it to resonate with you at all times.
I also have been having trouble with taking leaps of faith and trusting that things will be alright. I have returned to the place that made me sick last year as a job, and even though I’m not working in the same capacity, I’ve been noticing that it’s taking me a long time to adjust and feel good about where I am. I don’t feel at home anymore. I feel like my body is in one place but my soul is in another. Spiritually, I feel like I am not being fed. This is one of the most challenging things that we deal with on a daily basis – whether or not we are in the right place at the right time. Some people call out to their Higher Power for answers. Some people sit and meditate and ask their third eye to help them see the light. Others end their lives because they feel it’s too much to handle. I’m in a space where I want to encourage you to take a leap of faith; this is me speaking to myself as well.
I grabbed an oracle deck to practice reading with, and this is the card I pulled today. It is time for a new beginning and a revolution in your life, as well as my own. You have to remember that everything is working out for the greater good. You have the capacity to make change in your life, but trust and faith is also what is most important in order for you to be successful. It doesn’t look prim and proper always. Sometimes, it’s messy. Sometimes, it’s hard. But at the end of the day, you have the faith to know that you deserve better and don’t feel like you’re at home where you are.
Today, my dice divination was a 5 – this signifies change, inconsistency, freedom, and realignment. I encourage you today to think about realigning yourself and what it looks like to be truly free. What changes do you want to arise in your life? What does your soul want for you? I know today, this is where my mind will be living. I can’t function honestly without thinking about this, and trying to put all the pieces together. I know that you’re probably feeling somewhat of the same shifts, and realize that all of this is coming together for a New Moon that is happening very soon. Everything is shifting and you are the author of your destiny. Just have faith that a new beginning in some regard is what is important for you.