You ‘Bout Dat Life?

“We must’nt let our dreams die in the daylight because we lose focus while responding to the world’s lame interests or false emergencies.” – Brendon Burchard, The Motivation Manifesto.

Happy Lionsgate Portal everyone! I hope that each of you are feeling free today, and have been able to release some of the energy that has been plaguing you recently, and have allowed love to enter your atmosphere. Before I begin talking about today’s subject that’s lying on my heart, I want to address the Lionsgate Portal.

Today’s Lionsgate Portal always happens around this time of year, and it’s mainly focused on allowing yourself to open your heart, your eyes, and feel safe with doing such. For me, I interpret it as allowing yourself to be vulnerable, so that others can be vulnerable. You’re probably in the midst of going through some really tough lessons, or rehashing prior lessons that you thought you had already moved past coming back into your spirit. Being aware of your heart chakra and third eye chakra and loving yourself and loving others is extremely important on today, and moving forward. If you haven’t already, take some time for focusing on what the idea of love is to you, and whether or not you truly love yourself and love others around you, even if they have done you wrong. We were all put on this planet in order to spread love and connect, and as social media, differences, and society naturally try to pit us against one another, I want you to take a second and focus on whether or not you are leading with love on today. It’s our job as a human race to leave this planet better than the way that we found it, and every day, with what’s going on around us, it feels harder. You, however, have the capacity to create a space for love and light, and radiate that no matter where you go. Whether that means thanking someone for their services at a restaurant, smiling at a stranger in the streets as you pass them, or just being a listening ear for a friend that really needs to vent, you can make a choice to be full of love and compassion towards another. Everyone’s journey in life is different, and everyone deserves to be showered with love no matter what is going on in your world, or theirs.

Another huge part of this portal is making sure to cover and cleanse your cerebellum chakra. I’m sure you’re like, what the hell is that? Well, it’s located on the back of your neck, right beneath your hairline. Take some time today to let warm water rinse along the back of it, use some essential oils, and massage the back of your neck and recite this mantra that I so graciously was able to learn about from Forever Conscious, a site I visit regularly when I’m trying to be spiritually fed. (Thank you guys, if you ever see my site!)

“It is safe for me to open my heart, it is safe for me to open my eye. It is safe for me to lean into all that I feel. For when I do, I find my strength, I find my truth, and I find what I’m guided to do.”

All of this transitions into the topic that I wanted to talk about, and that is motivation. The last part of the mantra I stated, about finding what you are guided to do, is directly connected to this topic of motivation and doing what you feel passionately led to do.

Today, I decided to take some time to disconnect from everything. I left my phone at home and took a walk in nature for about two hours alone, not having any distractions. It was quite the time, because I was able to just enjoy and listen to the sounds of nature and what was going on around me. I smiled at waitresses and started conversation, I ventured into new stores I hadn’t ever ventured into, and just allowed myself to go wherever my feet led me. I found myself in this really awesome store in my neighborhood where I found some really awesome essential oils, sage, and other really awesome products called Life Wellness. I found it ironic that while I was there and speaking to the cashier and checking out the products, she had checked the time on her phone and 2:22 brightly popped up. It just affirmed that I was in the right place at the right time. Whenever I see “angel numbers” or repeated numbers (11:11, 1:11, 12:34, 3:33, 5:55, 7:11), it’s a sign that I’m in tune with the Universe’s energy and I’m right where I need to be at the right time. I took some time to sit at the store and write and just think about what was going on in my life and how grateful I am to be doing some more of the things that motivate me and make me happy, such as going to that store and getting these items that helped rejuvenate my spirit.

After leaving, I wanted to take some time to sit and read. I’ve been reading this book called “The Motivation Manifesto: 9 Declarations to Claim Your Personal Power” by Brendon Burchard for quite some time. It’s been taking me a long time to read the book because literally every page in the book scalps me bald. It’s just such a good read and really makes me sit and reflect, even after reading 10 pages. While reading today, I came across the topic of being motivated to do things, and truly resonating in what is important to you when it comes to putting in that work towards your goals. We all have dreams and desires that we want to see come to pass, but a lot of times, we get caught up in the worry about not getting the results that we want immediately, and that slows us down in regards to the process it takes to get there. It is as if our motivation depletes because we think about the work that goes into getting what we desire, and we may think it too hard or too time consuming.

Now, I want to push your thinking a bit. If you’re really motivated to do something and you truly want something to be a part of your aura and energy, do you ever really get tired of doing what it takes to get there?

I’ll give you a personal example. I joined a gym in early July because I really have been wanting to get a nice body. What was my motivation for joining the gym? Well, I can’t sit here and fake – I see everyone and their tight bodies all over Instagram and Twitter, flaunting their booty cheeks and bodies everywhere, trying to get #summerready or have that #foreverbody, and it makes me want the same. I’ve struggled with body dysmorphia for the past 7 years, and a lot of times, social media has made me feel insecure with how I look. Even when I was at my smallest, which was around 127 pounds (I’m about 5’6″) last summer, I still felt like I was imperfect and that I had things I could do better with my body. Now, I wasn’t in the best place mentally nor health wise, and was starving myself, and I lost that weight unintentionally. Now, I’ve put on weight and I’m still a bit insecure when it comes to how I look, and I joined the gym because at the time, I was motivated to get the body that I always wanted. Here’s an insider secret:

I hate the fuckin’ gym. I hate working out. Why? I just really hate sweating and it’s a commitment that you have to make that I haven’t fully invested myself in yet. I can truly own that, and I haven’t also been making it a true habit in order to go to the gym because I lack the mental focus and desire to be there every day or even every other day at this point. That’s a fault of mine, and today’s reading made me sit back and assess whether or not having a dream body was a true dream of mine, or if it was something I was doing just to please other people and myself. I definitely want to be healthier, but I have to make sure that I make it a habit to take care of myself, and remember the reason why I do what I do in order to have results. It’s all about refocusing my mind and desires, and knowing that the work that I put in will have results as long as I stay consistent and remember that the end goal will be worth it when I actually recalibrate the reason why I want to have a better body.

I want to have a better body, better eating habits, and better overall lifestyle because it’ll help me to feel more grounded as a whole: mind, body, and spirit. This is a refocus of mine that I’m working on, and I’ve lacked motivation because I haven’t grounded myself in the “why” completely. One of my dreams is to have a nice little chest for me to be able to look at in the mirror and feel good about, but I also have to remember that my body is my temple and I need to take care of it daily in order for it to be around for years to come. Refocusing my thinking is so important, and when I remember that that is the motivation, I can get in the gym and be good to go. I also have to remember that I don’t need to PUSH myself everyday while I’m at the gym. Me getting there at this point is half the battle, and every time that I’ve pushed myself to go the gym against my desire to be there, I’ve felt good after leaving because I’ve accomplished something. I hate the cheesy quote, but it’s true: “Rome wasn’t built in a day.” This forever body won’t be built in a day either, and I have to remember that consistent work towards my goal is what is the most important to gaining what I want. I also have to remember my “why”, and I have to remember to motivate myself to remember that my “why” is that I want to be around on this Earth as long as the Universe will let me be, and my Higher Power will allow me to be here. I can assist in this by making sure I’m taking care of my temple as best as possible.

I want to compare this motivation for going to the gym with another motivation of mine: up-keeping this blog and writing in it consistently.

Daily, I find so much passion in writing in this blog. I find so much joy doing this work, and having people read the posts that I write. I wake up in the morning, excited to curate something new. A passion of mine is becoming a published author, and I know that through the practice of writing daily, it’s a great way for me to get closer to my goals. I also know that I stay motivated to write daily because it’s such a beautiful release for me, and I’m motivated because I know other people potentially can get something from my writing. I do this writing for me, first and foremost, but am grateful when others can gain something from the information and vulnerability that I share that other folks may struggle to. I love the idea of human connection, and if I’m the person that can keep it real and be the light for someone else, it legitimately makes me smile and feel like I’m shining and moving in my purpose. My motivation for keeping this blog full of posts and work is simple: I have a bigger goal in mind and I know that every day is a process and it’s something that I love doing. I have a clear vision as to my “why” when it comes to writing, and this is what keeps me invested in continuing to create daily, whether it’s something huge or not. Now, if only I were able to transfer this into me wanting to go to the gym…

But wait. I can. I have the choice to do such if I remember to motivate myself and do what I can slowly but surely. I look at me getting out into the world, walking around and getting fresh air for two hours as my exercise for the day. I mean, I was sweating like a pig, and if you know me personally, you know that I barely like to leave my house in the first place. So for me, to get out of the house and do something in the streets was a push for me. Baby steps. And this is something I can transfer to getting into the gym, watching what I eat, and staying healthy.

Maybe you’re trying to figure out how to be more motivated. You can’t hope for motivation, but you have to choose an ambition to be motivated for. You have to be rooted in your why, and not get distracted by other things that take you away from doing what needs to be done. You have to make choices that sustain the desire to keep going. This may be you enlisting someone else to make sure that they help you stay on top of tasks that you truly want to do. Sometimes, looking at it on a sticky note that you put on your wall and seeing that as your motivation regularly is just as important to have as a reminder. You have to have focus on what you want to achieve, because without focus, you will lack results. This goes back to the quote that I stated at the beginning. You can’t take your eyes off your goals and wait for the “right time” to start. Every day is not promised, and I want you to remember that. But every day that you have breath in your body, it’s an opportunity for you to be able to stay motivated and allow your desires to come to fruition if you are dedicated to it.

If you’re trying to become a YouTube star, an actor, a singer, or even the CEO of your own company, you have to stay motivated to do the work and have people in your corner that can assist you in keeping yourself accountable. People always won’t be there to hold you accountable, so you have to hold yourself accountable for your actions and your motivation first. If it’s something that truly matters to you, you’ll figure out a way to make something happen every day, little by little. Motivation only feels fickle to those that aren’t attentive to their ambitions and what they desire. Sometimes, you just have to set your goals daily and visualize what you want your end goal to be. The more effort you put into visualizing and internalizing what your end goal to be, the more you are able to see it come to pass.

Take some time today to think about what you truly want out of your life and go within. Ask yourself what you want for yourself and what new goal would be meaningful for you. What gives you excitement when it comes to learning or giving, and what great adventure do you dream of? What will push me out of bed each morning? When you can tap into those things and figure out what they are, and hold yourself accountable, knowing that the path won’t be easy, the more you are going to be able to get closer to your goals. It’s all about having faith, and expecting that it will happen no matter what because day by day, you’re making things happen. You may have to ask for help, but as long as you stay persistent in your pursuits, you’ll be good to go.

Visualize your goals, and internalize what it will take for you to get yourself where you want to be. Believe in yourself that your desires will happen. I know I believe in you, if you don’t think anyone else does. Your dreams will become a reality over time as long as you see yourself gaining what you want to see at the forefront of your life. And remember that every day is a step in the right direction as long as you continue to work towards your goals. 

Maybe you should take some time to journal about some of the things that I pushed you to read about today. Fixate on a dream and believe that it will see the daylight soon. Don’t take your eyes off your goals, and continue to do what’s necessary along the way to get one step closer.

“It is the obvious equation and the ultimate secret; the deeper and longer I give attention to my ambition and passions, the more motivation I feel.”

Stay up, stay motivated, and stay connected to your “why” on today. Are you really about that life? If you are, get to work.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

 

Tarot Pull – 8.7.18 – The Outcast

Buenos días. I send lots of love and light and comfort to each person taking the time to read today’s post. I also send a lot of power. This week, energetically, has a lot going on in the cosmos. Tomorrow is the opening of the Lionsgate Portal, which is going to bring about a lot of energy that helps you to tap into your empathic energy (or even raise your empathic energy if you already are one), and also bring a lot more love into the Universe and your surroundings. We also have an eclipse happening at the end of the week that is going to be monumental to your glow-up phase. You may have been having an off week thus far, and feeling a little conflicted in various ways. I know I have personally, so if you’re feeling a bit off, don’t forget to learn how to reset yourself and breathe through this. It’s totally normal. All these retrogrades ain’t no hoe.

This morning during meditation, I took some time to practice using some of the Mudras. Mudras are hand gestures rooted in Hinduism and Buddhism. While I do not practice either of these religions/spiritualities, I use them during meditation in order to help me seal in energy that I want to enact for the day. They’re used a lot in yoga, and while I’m not a yogi, I intend one day to get to that space where I’m able to use more yoga practices in my daily life in order to center my energy. Today I used the Power Mudra (listed below) in order to help me make sure that I flow through my day with power. If you meditate, you can use some of these in order to seal the energy that you want throughout the day. You don’t have to be Buddhist or Hindu in order to use the Mudras, and I have noticed that my practice of using them while meditating helps me feel even more alive afterwards. There are many different mudras (the link above has different ones for yoga practices), so you have a number you can use while meditating.

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Moving forward, I want to get into today’s tarot card pull, which I found very interesting, in light of something I read yesterday. Today’s tarot card pull was The Outcast.

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I pulled this card after doing some dice divination. I rolled a 4 twice (I have two sets of dice I roll every morning in order to think about a number I want to keep in mind a day – how many times I take deep breaths when triggered, how many people I check in with a day, etc) and this is the card that I pulled after shuffling 4 times, and removing the first 3 cards off the top of the deck to get to the fourth one. This is what I pulled.

Now, I was reading somewhere on a site I visit frequently, Forever Conscious, about how important it is this week to take some time to disconnect from social media and everyone else and spend time to connect to nature and your thoughts and what is going on with your personal energy.

As we look at this card, we see a naked man, in a carefree and contemplative manner, stretching as if he just accomplished some really difficult work. He is in a very divine pose, if you ask me, and really just submitting himself to everything around him.

“The bag he carries on his shoulder contains the minimum a human being may have. His lips hold a flower, a symbol of innocence and näiveté. His legs are crossed, showing that he can change his position as he pleases. One foot is slightly propped up and is being pecked by a bird, causing him pain – the only feeling that will call him back to reality and prevent him from falling into complete emptiness. The other foot is twisted in an uncomfortable, though not impossible position. In spite of being on the edge of a precipice, he turns his back to it and holds lightly onto a palm tree. [This card] is called “the outcast” because, within several African tribes, a person who did not abide by the rules of his social group had only one alternative: exile.”

A couple of things I want to pull out here are that he is trying to hold onto the lightest amount of baggage he can. He’s not trying to carry anything with him that isn’t necessary. Are you holding onto things of the past that are weighing down on you right now? If so, I believe it’s time to let them go. Are you allowing things or people that don’t necessarily serve your greater good to hold you back? Let them go. Him being pecked by this rooster, in the picture, is causing him pain, and bringing him back to reality. Sometimes, we have people or situations that don’t allow us to be in our most powerful states because we are so worried about perception of how others will receive us when we are functioning at our highest selves. When we are not following the crowd, we tend to feel exiled or like we do not fit in. Is there a problem in being exiled for following what you believe YOU need for your own good? I think not, personally.

If you struggle with FOMO (fear of missing out), is it because you think the situation/event you’re missing out on is worth your time, or do you just want to be a part of the crowd? Or do you consider thinking about how you would rather not energetically be in that space and how it may affect your being? Take some time to think about this. It says that when people in these African cultures didn’t follow the crowd, they would be exiled. Normally, exile, or isolation as I want to refer to it in this case, has always seemed like a bad thing. But, at times, that isolation is what allows you to focus and harness your personal power in a way that you wouldn’t be able to unless you are by yourself, focusing on yourself. Take some time to ponder on this.

“The chosen animal, a rooster, awakens us from a lethargic state. This is not a casual selection. The rooster is chosen because this brave fowl does not exude adrenaline as a result of fear.” Essentially, don’t be fearful of what you’re missing out on. You deserve you-time, and make sure you take this time in order to function at your highest good.

The meaning of this card is that [it might be] “overwhelming and difficult to handle situation(s) or attitude(s). Uneasiness, nervousness, but lightheartedness at the same time. Childish behavior, laziness, complacence, lyricism; immoderate, unrestrained and misunderstood altruism. Hypersensitivity, although seemingly numb to feelings, which may be a mental block. Need to suffer to mature. Total incongruity, sickness, madness, yet geniality at the same time, meaning that he is not using his powers, intelligence, or creative imagination, which is significant.”

Whoa. That’s a lot to take in, even for me as I dive into this. I think of myself and a lot of my personal journey in life. I have been undergoing a transformation internally for quite some time, and it’s been lonely at times. I also have been in emotional spaces where I feel alone, and don’t know who to reach out to, and feel like I need someone there in order to make me feel better. I’ve been hypersensitive myself to things around me at times, but as days have gone on, that has gone away. Why? I realize that my path is for me and not for everyone else. I’m choosing to mature myself, and sometimes, suffering is part of the maturation process. I think of certain battles I’ve been experiencing, such as focusing on my job process, and other instances in my sobriety that have at times in the past made me feel like an outcast. Ironically enough, I don’t feel guilty as much as I used to. I’m moving past feeling like being an outcast or just being ‘different’ is a bad thing. You have to realize that your journey on this planet is special for you, and at times, others won’t get it. You will have people that are in your corner and understand, but the lot won’t.

Are you taking time to daydream and think about what you actually want in your energy? Are you taking time to value what’s important to you, and no one else? You always don’t need to provide an answer to others. Sometimes, you just need to have faith and trust that what is for you is for you and will come in due time. Otherwise, this card can reflect a lot of negative behaviors that cause you to be in a space that doesn’t serve your spirit, and your isolation can be seen as negative. Everyone needs their time to recharge, and you deserve the opportunity to do such. Cut out and cut off what doesn’t resonate with your spirit, or else you can find yourself in spaces that you are mentally blocked off and can’t function. I don’t want that for you, and I’m sure you don’t want that for yourself.

“His reactions are hard to explain, understand, or control. He sees the trees, but not the forest. He loses himself in unnecessary details and his priorities change. His love affairs are conflicting and morbid, and he tends to abandon them. He may be a great poet who will never finish a single tercet, a great musician who will never perform his symphony, etc.” 

Are you losing yourself in unnecessary details for your own personal growth? Are you allowing yourself to just see what’s right in front of you, instead of the grand picture? Are you taking time to really think about what’s most important for you? Do you have a vision of what you want, forgetting about always pleasing others? As someone who has grown up and internalized a life of people pleasing, I am constantly working past putting others before myself. In my line of work, that’s natural for me to put others before me. But, you also have to connect back to the boundaries that you want to set in place in order to make sure that you are functioning at your greatest potential and not letting yourself be taken advantage of. Being an outcast can be positive or negative, based on how you frame your thinking around it. Sometimes, you just need to be alone in order to receive what the Universe and your Ancestors have for you. That doesn’t mean you don’t care about other people – you are your first priority and with the help of your own personal Higher Power or your deepest connection to self, you can ensure that you are isolating yourself when you need to reconnect to what’s most important. That’s your personal path and personal growth. Everyone ain’t made to go along with you, especially if they’re not helping you grow to the space you see yourself being and the person you want to become.

‘If you have no direction, you may tend to find yourself doing things outside your character. You may lack tenderness and love in some aspect. If you find yourself in this situation, change immediately to avoid sinking into the abyss. Do not wait until pain knocks at your door to bring you to reality. If it is not you, but another person, help immediately to free them from that freezing catharsis. Remember: they need affection and understanding immediately.’

As you read this, you may be thinking – hey, I’m actually doing my own thing, feeling good, looking good, flourishing, drinking my water and hydrating, minding my own fucking business. You also could know of a person who is drowning themselves in personal sorrow and doesn’t even realize the damage that they are causing by not functioning in their true light. It’s not your job to judge – it’s your job to guide them to the light. The best way is by trying to show them that you understand, and lead with love today. Remember, you may have been outcast at one point, and someone may have pulled you out of your shell or out of your depression in order to show you the light. We are all on this Earth to connect with one another. Everyone doesn’t always have to be outcast or alone forever in order to gain what they need in regards to their salvation and happiness. You can be that light for them if you see them suffering. Wouldn’t you want that same love and affection back to you?

If you feel like this is you, wake the actual fuck up, strap them boots on, and do the work that is necessary deep down. That may take you taking a step back from the things you normally would do, reassess what is happening around you, and re-emerge when you feel ready. But also, remember that there is someone that you can reach out to if you need that compassion and that love. If you are reading this and don’t feel like you have a ‘person’, I’m willing to be that person for you. Yes, I admit and accept that I am not a perfect person, but I am willing and able to be the light for others in a way that you may not be able to be for yourself. Take the charge of thinking about what is important for you to feel like you are functioning on your personal path towards your own happiness and joy. It’s your birthright to feel that, and if you feel yourself sinking like a ship, it’s time to hop off that bitch and re-pot yourself so you can grow into the beautiful flower that you are. If you see someone else sinking and you are already strapped in strong to your power, reach out to others to make sure that they don’t drown. Everyone needs and deserves an understanding friend or person in their life that will support them. I’m grateful for those people in my life, and all they have done to save me from myself in ways. (shoutout to my tribe and my partner <3)

Pay it forward on today. If you need some time to recalibrate, do such. No one should judge you and if they do, they’re not a part of the social circle you need to be in. Your tribe will come to you in your time of need, and those are the people that will feed your spirit the way that you deserve.

I hope this makes sense. Live in power today, find your true passions, take time for yourself, and don’t drown yourself in sorrow if you’re feeling lonely. Reach out to others for help if necessary, and remember that there’s always someone there, ready and willing to help you if you ask for it.

I love you, if no one else has told you this today.

Amen. Asé.

-gg