it’s so easy for us to focus on what’s going bad in our lives when we’re in the thick of it that we don’t give ourselves time to reflect on the good that has happened. i found myself taking some time within the past couple of weeks to think about how crazy this year was emotionally for me and how much of a rollercoaster it was. i thought of all the negative things that happened and how many things didn’t go my way…and what i realize is that we are programmed as humans to not focus on the good stuff that happens to us when it does. we have made it to the final new moon of the year, which is in sagittarius, and this is made for us to take some time to reflect on what we actually have accomplished.
you have to applaud yourself for still being here. we have a cheeto for a president and the fact that we are still alive and able to do for ourselves to some extent is a blessing. the fact that we still have peace of mind to make decisions every day is something that we have to be grateful for. and a lot of times, we take these things for granted.
i reflect on this year and some of the things i wrote down that i wanted to manifest at the end of last year. i wanted to get my writing off the ground. i wanted to try and meet someone and build something with them. i wanted to figure my purpose in life out more. i wanted to get closer to God and continue to work on my spiritual practices. i’ve done so much within this year that i didn’t even realize i had things to be grateful for. i can acknowledge that things aren’t as perfect as i want them to be, but that’s part of the journey.
in this time of the sagittarius new moon, we are asked to really reflect on the blessings and growth that we have made as humans. think back to where you were this time last year, and what you were doing to prepare for 2018. i know i was just trying to make it into this year claiming it to be the best year of my life, making hella changes. well, the changes that happened weren’t necessarily the changes i anticipated, but it goes to show that you can’t make life perfect. you can’t always control everything the way you want to. going with the flow and learning what can contribute to making you feel alive again is where it is super important to focus at this time. even if you haven’t gotten that business that you wanted off the ground…you thought of it, didn’t you?
even if you didn’t get into that relationship you were hopeful for, you learned so many things about yourself that allowed you the space to realize and recognize what you want in a partner and what you don’t so you can manifest that energy in the future.
i’ve been learning so much about how much universal energy we have at our fingertips. last night, i received an e-mail from michelle jeovanny because i’m subscribed to her e-mail listing. she talked about how much universal energy we have at our fingertips. and when i thought about the idea of it being at our fingertips, it made me think about where the actions that allow our fingertips to move come from…our brains.
and the more that we are able to channel and use the beauty that we possess inside ourselves to focus on what’s most important to us and our desired outcomes, the more we are able to make happen in this world. what i also realized is that we have to allow ourselves to take time with ourselves to learn what we need. with the time that i have had away to figure out my life, i realize that my life path and my truth is not going to be the same truth as someone else’s. the trajectory i have is going to be unique and it’s going to be my authentic story that gets me there. and i can’t allow anyone to tell me differently about how that should look. i have to stand firm in what i believe and what i want, and i encourage you to do some searching and do the same.
i was also asked to take a look ten years from now and think about where i see myself and who i want to be. another person i did some work with, michelle with auric encouraged me to talk to the person i am years from now. asked me what i’m doing. what i’m wearing. who am i with. what do i see. and being able to visualize that cool ass motherfucker that i’ll be 5, 10, 15 years from now… i want to meet him.
the only way that i’m going to get there though is if i believe i can meet him and he deserves to be a part of my space and my energy. i want you to convene with your future self and also thank yourself for how far you have come.
you’re magic. you deserve. you are worthy in this world. and i am thankful for all of you that read this and i want to remind you…you matter to me and i love you.
with all the strong sagittarius new moon energy i can give to you, i send you the most loving hug right now.