ramadan.

alhamdullilah.

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expressions of gratitude come in a variety of forms. you know, your man may get you a good edible arrangement sent to your job. maybe in order to show that you’re thankful towards a boss, you’ll do something for them like get a gift card for them to a place you know they like or something. or whatever actions you may take with anyone that you care about, …you go out of your way sometimes to show that you care. well, this year the way i’m going to practice showing my gratitude is by observing Ramadan, which begins today.

why Ramadan? this is going to sound crazy, but watching the tv show Ramy on Hulu gave insight to the Muslim perspective in America (or at least one millennial’s version of it as he searches for spirituality) and the show is just good in general as a watch. however, the search for deeper meaning of spirituality and himself gave me a tinge of a point for personal reflection. one episode was completely dedicated to Ramadan and growing up, i have had a number of Muslim friends who have observed Ramadan. this year however, i have SO MUCH to be grateful for. and simply just being alive is enough to be grateful for.

now, i did try Lent out this year but that was a flop. the reason why is because when i began, i wasn’t as dedicated to it. i felt like it was something i was going to ‘try’ to do – my level of investment wasn’t there. and when i broke it the first time unknowingly after day 6, i just gave up altogether. this on the other hand…this for me feels like a time to truly give back to myself, my Higher Self, my Ancestors, God, Obatalá, my egún, my Ori and my angels. now, I’m not Muslim…but why can’t i practice fasting, giving reverence where it is due, and sacrificing a bit of something so small in life in order for me to spiritually grow?

i have never seen the point of being limited to a box for anything. i don’t think it makes any fucking sense to box any sort of practices and religions in unless you are to undergo an initiation to become some sort of practitioner in a religious sect/background. otherwise, find your fuvking peace, bro. you’re the author of what that looks like for you and i have decided to take the reins on that this year.

for your own sake and i mean, this could help someone else too. why am i going to be diving into this? aside from me wanting to try this out for my own personal desire and strength of spirit, i want to start weaning out some bad habits that i have. i also want to see what i can create and give my time to when i’m not filling it with other things i may be doing that waste it. i want to see what routines i can enhance or make better for myself. i also am personally excited to be able to devote guaranteed time to meditate, pray, and go within for clarity. this will even be observed during the work day, and having that level of peace is something that i believe is going to bring me such enlightenment. i don’t mind the fasting – the ‘no drinking water’ thing is gonna be hard because i talk all day but i’ll manage.

regardless of how this goes, there is a lesson i will gain through all of this i am excited to lean into. when you expand your viewpoint and attempt to try new things out, new blessings come from new lessons. give it a try, and meet me in the street. we ain’t on the playground no more.

be blessed. ramadan mubarak.

amen. asé.

-gg

The Voice Inside

Happy Friday to everyone reading! I don’t know where this post is going, but I’m going to speak about intuition and how it’s led me to do certain things, act certain ways, and how it can be a barometer for you in your life. In terms of being intuitive, I believe that this is something that comes from a gut feeling. We are spiritual beings as humans, and there is a spirit that rests within our soul that tells us how to respond to things, even if we don’t recognize it. A great quote from one of my favorite shows, Survivor, comes from Kellyn Bechtold in this past season of Survivor: Ghost Island. A question was posed to her on whether or not she makes decisions using her head or her heart. She responded with her gut leading her to make decisions, and that’s the combination of her using her head and her heart in conjunction with one another to lead her down the way to make a decision.

Now, sometimes, intuition can lead us into situations that don’t always seem flavorful in the moment, but this doesn’t mean that it doesn’t impact us in some sort of way. It also takes a lot of practice to follow your intuition and tap into knowing what is right and what is wrong. I believe it to be a mixture of you following what you know is right in your head, and what is right in your heart, plus that feeling inside of you that just tells you when to go to a certain place, or when to avoid a certain situation. This can come into play in a multitude of ways, on a number of levels.

I’ll give you a personal example. One day, heading home from work, I was hungry. The bus passes by this restaurant that I love going to, and I had something in my gut tell me to not go there. I didn’t know why my intuition was telling me not to go here – I mean, it’s just food? Yeah, I could save the amount of money I was spending there and get something cheaper to eat, but I just didn’t think like that. I just went there anyway. I only had my cards on me, and no cash, and this place doesn’t have an ATM machine. Ironically enough, their machines were down, meaning that they could only take cash. I wasn’t about to spend my time going to find cash just to eat there, so I went on about my life. That’s a moment where I realized that my intuition was trying to tell me something, but I let my head get in the way, because I tried to rationalize with myself that I was just overthinking things.

Your intuition can also lead you out of dangerous situations that can be harmful for you. One evening, I was invited to go to a party where there was going to be a bunch of ‘vices’ that could have threatened my sobriety in a sense. I followed my intuition and stayed at home instead, and decided to make a spiritual bath instead. I felt this feeling of calm and love for self that I knew I needed to just take care of self, and stay at home. I felt so much more at peace, and even though I was missing some of my friends at this party, I knew that I was saving myself from a situation that could have been potentially harmful for me. What I’ve noticed is that following your intuition for the most part feels GOOD. You start to feel like your vibration is raised and you are connected to the Universe and what it wants you to notice.

You may be wondering how you tap into this. First, you need to believe that you have a strong intuition in order to receive these intuitive messages. You are receiving guidance every minute of the day, but you have to determine whether or not that is based on fear or love. You need to remember that your soul has a voice and the voice is your inner guide and teacher, and wants nothing more than the best for you. You have to allow your ego to get out of the way in order for your intuition to speak to you clearly.

Kyle Gray, who I’ve referred to before states in his book that I’ve referenced before “Raise Your Vibration” that “If you hear a voice telling you to do something and in so many days, weeks or months you’ll see the results, this is the ego speaking. If you hear a voice telling you that if you don’t make a certain change or do a particular thing you’ll have bad luck, you’ll fail, you’ll get fat and ugly and you’ll be a reject, then this is the ego too. The voice of your soul will always speak in the present tense. It will speak to you in a loving way and it will always point out how far you’ve come, the gifts that you have and tell you that you have more strength than you know. The voice of your soul doesn’t always have a plan but will remind you that if you take a step forwards the Universe will present the next step to you. It encourages you to take a leap of faith, knowing that you will be caught by your angels and guides.”

Remember that our inner selves are love. Your intuition and your soul only wants the best for you and only wants to spread love for you on your path towards your own spiritual growth. You should always have a loving conversation with yourself and ask your soul to speak to you loud and clear. Ask your angel guides to help you tap into the guidance you have in your soul, and thank your soul for being such a great teacher so that you can follow your heart’s true desires and take steps towards living life the way you want to: filled with a true sense of purpose and connection, and with some sort of style and grace. If you ask your soul to allow you this amount of willingness and guidance, there’s no reason why you shouldn’t be able to be at your best self.

This morning, I had a meeting that I had planned on going to, but my intuition told me to take a chill pill and do this instead. This weekend, I’ll be going camping (more details on where and why to come soon) and I will be following my intuition and using a lot of logic in order to ensure that I am in the safest place possible. I ask that while I am away, you all work on speaking to your soul and allowing your intuition to guide you in the direction that is best fit for you. (Also, send me some positive vibes. I haven’t been camping in almost 3 years so this should be an experience!) You’ll know what that means and what that sounds like. Just trust yourself, first and foremost. All you have is you, and your soul knows what it’s like to have integrity and purpose. Revel in that, and have a blessed weekend.

Choose to listen to the voice of your soul.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Tarot Pull – 8.7.18 – The Outcast

Buenos días. I send lots of love and light and comfort to each person taking the time to read today’s post. I also send a lot of power. This week, energetically, has a lot going on in the cosmos. Tomorrow is the opening of the Lionsgate Portal, which is going to bring about a lot of energy that helps you to tap into your empathic energy (or even raise your empathic energy if you already are one), and also bring a lot more love into the Universe and your surroundings. We also have an eclipse happening at the end of the week that is going to be monumental to your glow-up phase. You may have been having an off week thus far, and feeling a little conflicted in various ways. I know I have personally, so if you’re feeling a bit off, don’t forget to learn how to reset yourself and breathe through this. It’s totally normal. All these retrogrades ain’t no hoe.

This morning during meditation, I took some time to practice using some of the Mudras. Mudras are hand gestures rooted in Hinduism and Buddhism. While I do not practice either of these religions/spiritualities, I use them during meditation in order to help me seal in energy that I want to enact for the day. They’re used a lot in yoga, and while I’m not a yogi, I intend one day to get to that space where I’m able to use more yoga practices in my daily life in order to center my energy. Today I used the Power Mudra (listed below) in order to help me make sure that I flow through my day with power. If you meditate, you can use some of these in order to seal the energy that you want throughout the day. You don’t have to be Buddhist or Hindu in order to use the Mudras, and I have noticed that my practice of using them while meditating helps me feel even more alive afterwards. There are many different mudras (the link above has different ones for yoga practices), so you have a number you can use while meditating.

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Moving forward, I want to get into today’s tarot card pull, which I found very interesting, in light of something I read yesterday. Today’s tarot card pull was The Outcast.

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I pulled this card after doing some dice divination. I rolled a 4 twice (I have two sets of dice I roll every morning in order to think about a number I want to keep in mind a day – how many times I take deep breaths when triggered, how many people I check in with a day, etc) and this is the card that I pulled after shuffling 4 times, and removing the first 3 cards off the top of the deck to get to the fourth one. This is what I pulled.

Now, I was reading somewhere on a site I visit frequently, Forever Conscious, about how important it is this week to take some time to disconnect from social media and everyone else and spend time to connect to nature and your thoughts and what is going on with your personal energy.

As we look at this card, we see a naked man, in a carefree and contemplative manner, stretching as if he just accomplished some really difficult work. He is in a very divine pose, if you ask me, and really just submitting himself to everything around him.

“The bag he carries on his shoulder contains the minimum a human being may have. His lips hold a flower, a symbol of innocence and näiveté. His legs are crossed, showing that he can change his position as he pleases. One foot is slightly propped up and is being pecked by a bird, causing him pain – the only feeling that will call him back to reality and prevent him from falling into complete emptiness. The other foot is twisted in an uncomfortable, though not impossible position. In spite of being on the edge of a precipice, he turns his back to it and holds lightly onto a palm tree. [This card] is called “the outcast” because, within several African tribes, a person who did not abide by the rules of his social group had only one alternative: exile.”

A couple of things I want to pull out here are that he is trying to hold onto the lightest amount of baggage he can. He’s not trying to carry anything with him that isn’t necessary. Are you holding onto things of the past that are weighing down on you right now? If so, I believe it’s time to let them go. Are you allowing things or people that don’t necessarily serve your greater good to hold you back? Let them go. Him being pecked by this rooster, in the picture, is causing him pain, and bringing him back to reality. Sometimes, we have people or situations that don’t allow us to be in our most powerful states because we are so worried about perception of how others will receive us when we are functioning at our highest selves. When we are not following the crowd, we tend to feel exiled or like we do not fit in. Is there a problem in being exiled for following what you believe YOU need for your own good? I think not, personally.

If you struggle with FOMO (fear of missing out), is it because you think the situation/event you’re missing out on is worth your time, or do you just want to be a part of the crowd? Or do you consider thinking about how you would rather not energetically be in that space and how it may affect your being? Take some time to think about this. It says that when people in these African cultures didn’t follow the crowd, they would be exiled. Normally, exile, or isolation as I want to refer to it in this case, has always seemed like a bad thing. But, at times, that isolation is what allows you to focus and harness your personal power in a way that you wouldn’t be able to unless you are by yourself, focusing on yourself. Take some time to ponder on this.

“The chosen animal, a rooster, awakens us from a lethargic state. This is not a casual selection. The rooster is chosen because this brave fowl does not exude adrenaline as a result of fear.” Essentially, don’t be fearful of what you’re missing out on. You deserve you-time, and make sure you take this time in order to function at your highest good.

The meaning of this card is that [it might be] “overwhelming and difficult to handle situation(s) or attitude(s). Uneasiness, nervousness, but lightheartedness at the same time. Childish behavior, laziness, complacence, lyricism; immoderate, unrestrained and misunderstood altruism. Hypersensitivity, although seemingly numb to feelings, which may be a mental block. Need to suffer to mature. Total incongruity, sickness, madness, yet geniality at the same time, meaning that he is not using his powers, intelligence, or creative imagination, which is significant.”

Whoa. That’s a lot to take in, even for me as I dive into this. I think of myself and a lot of my personal journey in life. I have been undergoing a transformation internally for quite some time, and it’s been lonely at times. I also have been in emotional spaces where I feel alone, and don’t know who to reach out to, and feel like I need someone there in order to make me feel better. I’ve been hypersensitive myself to things around me at times, but as days have gone on, that has gone away. Why? I realize that my path is for me and not for everyone else. I’m choosing to mature myself, and sometimes, suffering is part of the maturation process. I think of certain battles I’ve been experiencing, such as focusing on my job process, and other instances in my sobriety that have at times in the past made me feel like an outcast. Ironically enough, I don’t feel guilty as much as I used to. I’m moving past feeling like being an outcast or just being ‘different’ is a bad thing. You have to realize that your journey on this planet is special for you, and at times, others won’t get it. You will have people that are in your corner and understand, but the lot won’t.

Are you taking time to daydream and think about what you actually want in your energy? Are you taking time to value what’s important to you, and no one else? You always don’t need to provide an answer to others. Sometimes, you just need to have faith and trust that what is for you is for you and will come in due time. Otherwise, this card can reflect a lot of negative behaviors that cause you to be in a space that doesn’t serve your spirit, and your isolation can be seen as negative. Everyone needs their time to recharge, and you deserve the opportunity to do such. Cut out and cut off what doesn’t resonate with your spirit, or else you can find yourself in spaces that you are mentally blocked off and can’t function. I don’t want that for you, and I’m sure you don’t want that for yourself.

“His reactions are hard to explain, understand, or control. He sees the trees, but not the forest. He loses himself in unnecessary details and his priorities change. His love affairs are conflicting and morbid, and he tends to abandon them. He may be a great poet who will never finish a single tercet, a great musician who will never perform his symphony, etc.” 

Are you losing yourself in unnecessary details for your own personal growth? Are you allowing yourself to just see what’s right in front of you, instead of the grand picture? Are you taking time to really think about what’s most important for you? Do you have a vision of what you want, forgetting about always pleasing others? As someone who has grown up and internalized a life of people pleasing, I am constantly working past putting others before myself. In my line of work, that’s natural for me to put others before me. But, you also have to connect back to the boundaries that you want to set in place in order to make sure that you are functioning at your greatest potential and not letting yourself be taken advantage of. Being an outcast can be positive or negative, based on how you frame your thinking around it. Sometimes, you just need to be alone in order to receive what the Universe and your Ancestors have for you. That doesn’t mean you don’t care about other people – you are your first priority and with the help of your own personal Higher Power or your deepest connection to self, you can ensure that you are isolating yourself when you need to reconnect to what’s most important. That’s your personal path and personal growth. Everyone ain’t made to go along with you, especially if they’re not helping you grow to the space you see yourself being and the person you want to become.

‘If you have no direction, you may tend to find yourself doing things outside your character. You may lack tenderness and love in some aspect. If you find yourself in this situation, change immediately to avoid sinking into the abyss. Do not wait until pain knocks at your door to bring you to reality. If it is not you, but another person, help immediately to free them from that freezing catharsis. Remember: they need affection and understanding immediately.’

As you read this, you may be thinking – hey, I’m actually doing my own thing, feeling good, looking good, flourishing, drinking my water and hydrating, minding my own fucking business. You also could know of a person who is drowning themselves in personal sorrow and doesn’t even realize the damage that they are causing by not functioning in their true light. It’s not your job to judge – it’s your job to guide them to the light. The best way is by trying to show them that you understand, and lead with love today. Remember, you may have been outcast at one point, and someone may have pulled you out of your shell or out of your depression in order to show you the light. We are all on this Earth to connect with one another. Everyone doesn’t always have to be outcast or alone forever in order to gain what they need in regards to their salvation and happiness. You can be that light for them if you see them suffering. Wouldn’t you want that same love and affection back to you?

If you feel like this is you, wake the actual fuck up, strap them boots on, and do the work that is necessary deep down. That may take you taking a step back from the things you normally would do, reassess what is happening around you, and re-emerge when you feel ready. But also, remember that there is someone that you can reach out to if you need that compassion and that love. If you are reading this and don’t feel like you have a ‘person’, I’m willing to be that person for you. Yes, I admit and accept that I am not a perfect person, but I am willing and able to be the light for others in a way that you may not be able to be for yourself. Take the charge of thinking about what is important for you to feel like you are functioning on your personal path towards your own happiness and joy. It’s your birthright to feel that, and if you feel yourself sinking like a ship, it’s time to hop off that bitch and re-pot yourself so you can grow into the beautiful flower that you are. If you see someone else sinking and you are already strapped in strong to your power, reach out to others to make sure that they don’t drown. Everyone needs and deserves an understanding friend or person in their life that will support them. I’m grateful for those people in my life, and all they have done to save me from myself in ways. (shoutout to my tribe and my partner <3)

Pay it forward on today. If you need some time to recalibrate, do such. No one should judge you and if they do, they’re not a part of the social circle you need to be in. Your tribe will come to you in your time of need, and those are the people that will feed your spirit the way that you deserve.

I hope this makes sense. Live in power today, find your true passions, take time for yourself, and don’t drown yourself in sorrow if you’re feeling lonely. Reach out to others for help if necessary, and remember that there’s always someone there, ready and willing to help you if you ask for it.

I love you, if no one else has told you this today.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

 

Tarot Pull – 8.6.18 – V of Water (inverted).

Welcome back gangstas. This morning, I woke up feeling groggy, but knowing that work needed to be done. I definitely wanted to sleep in, but I knew that I wanted to get up some posts today because yesterday, I wasn’t able to direct my energy into my creative work as much as I wanted to. I was having a bit of anxiety around not being ‘consistent’ and also just some personal things that were plaguing my head in regards to my future and what is coming forward. I’m proud of myself (and you!) for getting up this morning and starting on your way.

Now, I want to get into today’s tarot pull for the day.

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Today’s tarot pull is the V (five) of Water inverted. In the card, even though it’s upside down, it shows a man that is in a river holding onto a branch. Initially, I want to state that it seems like he’s trying to hold on for dear life in order to keep himself alive. This resonates with me because in some situations going on, I feel as though I have just been doing my best to grasp onto the fact that I know my faith is going to hold me through.

The text states “A man in a river with leeches beneath him wants to save himself from drowning by holding onto a branch but….the turbid waters are crowded with dangerous animals whose purpose is to destroy the man through vampirism by feeding themselves with the man’s blood.”

Spooky, right? This pushes me to make you think of who you have in your life that may be sucking the energy out of you. You may be holding onto something (or someone) that you feel as though is good for you. It could be a marriage. It could be a job. It could be a multitude of things. And you’re reaching for sticks trying to figure out how to hold on without being sucked completely dry.

We tend to sometimes go out on a limb for others and situations in order to get further in life. However, the waters are ever flowing and sometimes, they can take us over if we are not conscious of what’s happening around us. Consider what these things might be in your life and whether or not you are fighting them off, or if you’re allowing them to suck you dry. Raise your vibration and become aware of this. This connects to my prior post about boundaries and whether or not you’re setting them up in the right manner.

However, the inversion of this card has a different meaning than that of which you may think.

“[There’s a] possibility of holding onto a new hope. Perhaps nature pities you, and the tree that you once cut down will start to grow again and develop that branch, the only opportunity that you can hold onto to be able to get out of that muddy, dangerous water. If your karma so allows, you will start again and try to love and seek love. You will have a new group of friends and a different scale of values.”

There are a couple of things I want to pull out from this. You have a possibility of holding onto a new hope. The word ‘possibility’ is key. I say this because you are in charge of making sure that that possibility becomes a reality. This is a choice. You are the only person that is in charge of yourself, along with your Higher Power (or whatever you believe in, whether it be a Higher Power or not) and you have the opportunity to pull yourself out of your situation. It all relies on your ability to have faith and hope in whatever aspect that is.

Another point I want to pull from this is ‘karma’. What have you done for others lately? Have you given love? Have you shown respect towards others? Have you shown yourself some respect? There is always that belief that ‘what goes around comes back around’ (hey, Beyoncé! – you look radiant in the September issue of Vogue!). Be conscious of how you show up in this world daily, and how you are interacting with others around you. Are you spreading light, or are you being bitchy towards others on a regular basis? Are you in the middle of a situation where you know you should get out of something, but you’re not doing what you need to in order to protect yourself?  Is there someone or something you need to cut off in order for you to have the opportunity to release yourself from whatever is sucking you dry? Ask yourself these questions on today.

Based on what you put into this Universe is what you’ll get out of it. If you need to take some time to recalibrate and rethink how you show up for yourself and others, do that today. There are true vampires out there that just want to take, take, take, and if you allow that to continue, you will be left dry and without nothing. You have the ability today to start again and create the reality and the world that you truly deserve and want. This could garner new relationships, new friendships, and a whole new world that you may never have anticipated before. It’s okay to release yourself of what doesn’t serve you. It is your life, after all.

Reflect on everything that’s happening in your life today, and make some choices to change certain actions, behaviors, and patterns of thought that are literally sucking the life force out of you. You don’t deserve to feel drained at all. That means you aren’t functioning at your best self. Trust and believe, you deserve all the light and happiness in the world, so take some inventory of your life and what is good for you and what you need to eradicate from your space and your energy. When you do that, abundance will continue to come your way. Just allow space for it to come.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Boundary Setting.

Something led me today to talk about boundaries, and resetting them in order to make yourself put yourself in a better place wholly. A quote that I came across that resonated with me came from something I ran across while searching information about boundary setting.

“Setting boundaries is a way of caring for myself. It doesn’t make me mean, selfish, or uncaring (just) because I don’t do things your way. I care about me too.”Christine Morgan

Today, I decided to do a video instead because a friend of mine said he wanted to see me back in front of a camera. I haven’t been in front of a camera in a while, and I wanted to open myself up to being vulnerable and trying this out instead of a general blog post. This is the first time I’ve done this in quite some time, so bear with me and all of my flubs. Practice, not perfection.

Have you been setting boundaries in your life with your loved ones and your partners? What does that look like? Hopefully, today’s message can help touch you in a way to reset what those boundaries look like, and make sure that you’re setting them with the utmost positive intentions.

Remember. Saying ‘no’ is an answer in itself.

Asé. Amen.

-gg