plucked.

standing, looking around you at how the space has not changed a bit…but you have. this is what it feels like to have internal growth and know that things do not resonate the same way that they previously might have. have you ever gone back to a place that you frequented as a child years into your future, and remember the good times, the bad times, and all of the experiences you may have shared there with friends or even alone? and then you recognize how different you are inside and how these things don’t resonate with you anymore? this is the act of shedding what does not serve you, and realizing what growths and gains you have made inside. this is one of the biggest acts of kindness and love you can give to yourself, especially when you are able to make peace with letting things go.

letting something go isn’t easy. letting something go isn’t going to be a simple act. it’s going to take a lot of work to let go of what doesn’t work for you. what doesn’t make you happy. what doesn’t fit in your reality anymore. these things that don’t fit into your reality allow your space and your aura to have room for more…more life, more happiness, more newness, more excitement, more fulfillment, just MORE. the more that you humbly ask for your soul to be filled with what it’s looking for, the more the Universe meets you. using your magick that you have been born with and being able to manifest the truth that you want takes work – it takes you realizing what has to be let go and making a conscious effort to do such.

yesterday was my first day back to work after being out on disability over a month for personal health issues. let me tell you – being gone for a month from somewhere gives you time to change personally, and also gives the space time to change. or not…and in this case, the space hasn’t changed a bit. while that is comforting to know what you’re getting yourself back into, it’s also a huge wake-up call in regards to what has to be done in order to make life more worth living regularly.

life changes. opportunities change. you change. and what you choose to do with that is important. when your Higher Power makes something crystal clear…gives you a sign that something needs to be fixed, or eradicated from your life…do you answer the call? or do you hide away?

yes, as humans we have to make decisions that benefit us in the long run, thinking about responsibilities. thinking about what we can control. but working towards what we can control that fulfills our soul is the contract our spirit signed when we entered this planet in our Earthly bodies. whether or not you choose to follow said contract signed and make use of it is half the battle..

are you willing to do the work when you outgrow the plant pot that you’re in? are you ready to be transferred to a bigger pot? maybe a nicer one with more decoration? maybe even a smaller one that can help your leaves be even more pronounced? that’s a choice and a decision that you have to make yourself, and also allow yourself to be placed in certain pots. that comes with feeding yourself the right way and showing that you are ready to be plucked for the picking.

oh Lord. oh Universe. oh Ancestors. oh Eleggua. master of all roads. i’m ready to be plucked.

join me?

amen. asé.

-gg

Circles and Squares

Happy New Moon in Virgo, everyone! The New Moon in Virgo is connected to manifesting the dreams we have been hoping and praying for, and allowing them to come to pass. Today is also 9/9, and today’s date also has a lot of significant meaning when it comes to the Universe and its creation. The 99 Gateway is happening today, and if you would like some more information about its importance, you should go here and read about it. TL;DR – you should be focusing on loving yourself first so that way you can ensure that you are able to send love to others as well. Human connection is important in regards to our life here on Earth, and making sure you’re spending time healing connections with yourself first and with others.

Today, I did a little ritual where I sat and meditated for 30 minutes about the dream life that I wanted to have for myself, and allowed myself to finally daydream for once and think of all I wanted to see come to fruition. Visions of my future and the things that I want to see manifest themselves in my life is where I put a lot of my energy. I took inventory of the people in my life, what actually helped me feel stronger daily, and the things I actually want to accomplish and see for myself, no matter how inane they may sound to someone else. I then took some time to write down 10 actions steps I could take that were somewhat small in order to try and get towards the visions that I saw for me. After writing those action steps, I put them in a place that I can revisit them daily to help ground myself towards achieving the life that I want for myself – it helps me to remember why I’m here on Earth and was chosen to fulfill this soul mission.

If you haven’t taken some time to do that today, I would suggest you taking a moment to do such. Think about what your dream life would look like. Think about what you would be doing, how you would be feeling, and where you would be if life was “perfect” if it was dictated by your own being. Think of the people that would be a part of your life also, and whether or not the ones that are around you are people that deserve to be a part of your space. All of these things are important when it comes to having the happiness and life that you see yourself having.

Sometimes, we have some squares in our circle and we don’t need that energy in our lives. I was having a conversation with a friend today about how he was feeling disappointed in regards to him putting himself out there for others and really not receiving back what he deserves. This was a conversation that broke my heart, especially coming from him. He is such a kind soul, and many people can steal our joy, even when we don’t intend for them to do that. Folks can be soul suckers and savages, and some people are so self-interested that they only USE you for their own personal gain without keeping in mind that you’re a person. This New Moon energy is all about letting that shit go and letting those wack people go because they’re not functioning on the same frequency as you. However, I want to encourage you to not overreact and eviscerate them because of how they’ve done you. Lovingly just release them and their energy from your life. No one wants to deal with someone or something that takes away from their light.

I also would encourage you to spend some time sending love to those that have always been in your corner, giving you tough love, pushing you towards the dreams that you have been wanting to see happen in your life. When you have folx that you can be vulnerable with in that regard, it allows you to connect on such a deeper soul level that helps you to see flaws in yourself that make you better. I think of how I just got clocked by my partner the other day for making excuses for things just because of small setbacks. Those that really want to see you grow will always uplift you in a way that keeps it real with you, but also know you well enough to now it’s for your greater good and holds you accountable.

Squares can’t fit in circles for a reason. They just don’t match. They have different makeups. Everyone is on their different paths in life, and some take longer to get there than others. Even those that seem like they are on their ‘right path’ potentially may not be, and it could just be a detour towards something else. Don’t idolize what you don’t have and other’s may – just focus on what you got going on for yourself, and keep putting that loving energy into your spirit so that way you can make use of it. I think of how you know what’s best for you, and if someone isn’t willing to be well-rounded…they aren’t on the path towards becoming their best self. Circles are always moving in a rotation and always come back to what helps them start at their beginning. There are no questions about where they are ending also because they continue to move on and on. Think of who is continually reinventing themselves for their greater good, and those that just get stuck in their own ways. Don’t spend your time getting left in the dust because of your rigidity.

People change, and if you are not working on changing and becoming better, what are you really doing with your life? All in all, think about how you can become the best version of yourself, what actions you need to take to get there, and how you can focus on what is most important for your own personal gain and who has been a light and a support on getting you there. You’ll reap the benefits in so many ways. Let your fantasies run wild. Be encouraged to daydream. Search inside yourself for the life and the beauty you have only thought was an illusion. It can become real if you allow yourself to make it real. Just trust the process, and you’ll get there before you even know it. Remember, Rome wasn’t built in a day.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Remember me, September.

Happy September, and the beginning of a brand new month. I believe that the first of the month is always a time to be stressed because of bills and shit, but it’s also a time to set intentions and look at what you can positively manifest for what you want to see come to the surface for the month. Today is a special day for me personally, as I’m celebrating an anniversary with a special someone and I look forward to what the day has in store for me.

September is that time of year where we all know school is back in session, Fall is right around the corner, and we are about to step into a new energy and a different cycle of time. It’s said that September is a time of completion, as it is the last month of the 3rd part of the year. I think of all the things that I have learned throughout the summer, and I ask you to reflect on how summer was for you. Did you have a great summer? Did you make new relationships or friendships? Was your summer completely insular? Did you start a new endeavor or have a new vision come to the forefront for you, and now you want to make sure that you follow through with it? Think of what September can bring in terms of completion, and finishing up what you feel is necessary for you to transcend to another level. I always feel like September for me is the time to stop, take a second to think about what has happened up until this point, and then anticipate what I want the end of my year to look like. October is my birth month, so this is always the perfect time for me to start to manifest and plan for what I want to transpire as the rest of the year comes to a close and I celebrate a new year of life. 2018 has flown by if you think about it, and think of how far you have come and how much you have grown as a person this year.

I’ll get a little personal – I began this year in a fog, I feel like. I was in a deep depression (I experience seasonal depression already, and battling anxiety and depression without being medicated properly at the time) and was looking for clarity. Even though I was on a good level of connection with the Universe, a Higher Power and something outside of my physical self, I still wasn’t able to clearly achieve what I wanted out of life. I have some not-so-fond memories of me not advocating for myself, being harassed at work verbally and physically, and literally sleeping my life away because I was just so sad that I wasn’t where I felt like I needed to be. As time passed on, I began to relapse back into old habits that didn’t serve me at all. For those that don’t know me well, at the very beginning of the year, I was about a year and 5 months into sobriety from alcohol. As stress started to pile onto me, I began to go back to my old ways, thinking I had overcome the battle with alcohol that was plaguing me. This was not the case at all, as I was starting to see old parts of myself come back to the surface. I was in therapy at the time, and I remember feeling a lot of guilt and anguish around my return to alcohol. I still couldn’t find a way to put the bottle down, and thought that the situations I was enduring weren’t as bad as they were back before I became sober the first time. I found other outlets in order to curb my pain and anxiety, but they weren’t the healthiest outlets, so I went back to what I knew. I was still meditating, and doing what I felt was necessary to remain peaceful…but that wasn’t really serving its purpose. The bottle really hurt my spirit and my soul, and I began to feel lost. For those of you that know that alcohol is a depressant, drinking and being a person who deals with depression is NOT a good mix. I don’t recommend it to anyone because it only brings you more unhappiness and confusion in your life.

In therapy however, I began to find my voice. I began to find out that I was a lot stronger than I ever thought I was. I was able to come to the realization that my negative self talk was keeping me from being successful in my endeavors. I realized that I never thought I was good enough, or second guessed my abilities. I then began to realize that I was letting outside forces take over my beliefs, and came to the conclusion that I needed to look at myself first and build myself up more. I had all the tools right in front of me, but was blind to them. I began to learn that advocating for yourself isn’t a bad thing. Speaking up isn’t a bad thing. Owning your truth may seem uncomfortable for others, but it’s your own damn truth. I started to realize how much power I actually possessed, and how I was able to come even further than I had ever thought. I began to grow in therapy, and learned what I needed in order for me to feel at peace with myself.

I began the journey of self-love and truly appreciating who I am and not taking shit from anyone, no matter who they were: a boss, a friend, a lover, anyone. I learned what it was to make boundaries for myself, which I had never done in my life; I always thought it necessary to placate other people’s desires and that was the problem. I wasn’t putting myself first, and I have learned how to do that with a spirit of humbleness and strength these days. As the year has progressed and into the summertime, I was able to meet someone and learn from them some of the things that I never got to experience in companionship. I was able to build stronger relationships and be open with my friends and myself, regardless of judgment. I began to connect even more to my Higher Power, converse with my Ancestors without feeling judgment, and felt like my eyes finally opened. I began to own my space. I started this journey with writing again, which has been a passion of mine for years, but had waned over the past ~7 months. This blog was birthed not just for me, but to help others out there who may experience some of the same feelings I have and to reassure them that they aren’t alone. It was my way of doing service and giving back in my authentic, genuine way. That has made me so much stronger. I also started my sobriety journey again, and truly feel even stronger this time around. Now, I’m at a place where things aren’t still ‘perfect’ but it’s not life if everything is perfect. I’m happy, and always am growing towards a stronger place.

I urge you to take some time to reflect on what has made your year either amazing, tumultuous, depressing, happy, transformative…whatever adjective you would like to choose. I also want you to then think about and manifest what you would enjoy the rest of your year to be like, and how you can take action to make this happen. Just praying about it or meditating on it isn’t enough. Without proper action, you cannot gain what is necessary for you to feel at peace and see the hard work you put out there come to pass. You have to choose wisely in regards to what is beneficial for you, and what’s beneficial for others. You came into this world alone, and you will leave this world alone sadly – all the in-between is your opportunity to make decisions for yourself and live life to it’s highest capacity and for your greatest good. The journey is never over, and you are learning every day. It’s not always going to be a happy day. It’s not always going to be a sad day. But as long as you have breath in your body, you have choice. I choose to make sure that I do things that bring me joy, that keep me grounded, and that make me feel like I’m doing what is necessary for me to progress the way I want. I am nowhere near perfection, but who really is? Anyone that seems like they have the perfect life is bullshitting you, and social media and people’s walls will make you believe that everything is okay. The more that you are open with the changes you want, and have a tribe of people that support your endeavors, the more you are able to manifest and live the life of joy that you want.

These are two of the cards I pulled today. One is from my tarot deck, and the other is from my oracle deck. The tarot card is Xapaná/Babaluallé/Omolú and it’s a figure of a man fully covered by a kind of straw. The straw is around him to show that he has no shape. He’s related to matters of health to help make the correct treatment for what’s necessary for your betterment. He is popular and known as the saint that cures plagues and smallpox. When I think of plagues, this can be an emotional plague or an actual physical plague. He is the one that is said to be the healer of certain diseases. Because he is someone who is able to concentrate so deeply, it is said that his analysis is critical and his comments are sharp – basically, he is a straight shooter.

Think of what you need to do in order to be a straight shooter today in all endeavors. Sometimes, we cover ourselves up and have this shroud of mystery because we think we are saving ourselves from something or saving others from something. If you think about it, all you do when you shade yourself from others is legitimately hurt yourself from getting to the place you want to be. Be forthcoming in what you want in your life, and especially with the energy in the Universe we are experiencing, you can most definitely ensure that it’s time to boss the fuck up and do what is necessary for you to feel at peace.

It is said that the meaning of this card is a high fraternal and spiritual sense. You have a spirit of service and strong imagination and organizing mind. You are sensitive to the pain of others, physically and spiritually. You’re always willing to cooperate as much as possible, and this quality is more noticeable as time passes. You have the ability to recover and improve yourself from a certain state. Even though the card is inverted, since this card is the only one I pulled, I believe there are no bad vibes that come from this unless you choose not to take heed to these words I’ve shared. You can recover from whatever blunder you may feel you’re in the middle of, but as you see, it’s not done alone. It’s done through having a spirit of service and having a spirit of openness. Ensure that you are being honest with yourself and others, and doing what is necessary for you to progress. Honor how far you have come today, and celebrate the lessons you have learned with others. This is the only way to gain true salvation and understanding and be a true vision of service and manifestation towards goodness.

The oracle card Choose Wisely comes when you have a vision or goal you want to achieve, but you have scattered energies and unrealistic expectations that prevent you from getting what you desire. There are many opportunities out there, but you have to make a decision on what is going to be best for you. It reminds you that options that all around you and may appear to have all the influence and power, but you are the person that is in control and responsible for all the choices you make. This segues into you making the proper decisions that are going to help benefit you as time goes on in life. Make sure that you are taking the time today and for the rest of the month to think, analyze carefully, look at all possibilities in front of you, and take action. This card is outlined in green because it’s a card that deals with your emotions, and you want to ensure you are going into any situation with the clearest set of feelings probable in order to make the decision that’s going to benefit you for the better. Don’t be hasty just because you feel like you HAVE to do something – we are all given free will to do whatever is necessary for our greatest good. Don’t be influenced by others that don’t know what is best for you – this is a good time to heighten your intuition and be in tune with yourself and your own personal desires. Be focused. Be wise. Don’t make decisions out of desperation. Just be true to yourself and what is going to help you be at your best self – not things made out of extreme emotions.

This month, I want you to focus on how you can be of service to self first, but also service to others. Take into account what you can be responsible for and what you can control. Think about all options that are out there, and how you can use all these options to your benefit in the way that Spirit wants you to. Follow your gut/intuition, and make decisions that are going to help you live this month of September at your happiest, most sincere level. Meditate or pray on what is going to bring you true and utter peace. Remember that you are the only one that has to live with you at the end of the day, and as Tatianna from RuPaul’s Drag Race says…CHOICES. You have the choice to do what’s best for you.

A little mantra for you to go forth on today and think about as this month goes on:

“Mother Earth, I am your child. Thank you for being here. It feels so good to be here on this planet. Today, I vow to do my very best to help you along in your evolution. I know that as you grow and evolve, I will too. Thank you for all of your blessings to this point in my life. I feel very blessed.”

Repeat this a couple of times, and go forth and prosper today and for the rest of this month of September. Remember, you got the juice, as my baba says to me. It just takes you recognizing that you do and you are going to allow whatever is necessary for you to feel whole to come to pass. I believe in you. And I love you.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Commitment.

“Choose an ambition and, with full force, expect that it is possible and that you can make it happen. Give it constant attention and committed effort to your dreams, and your motivation will perpetuate itself. Demonstrate a positive attitude as you strive for great things and take care to create a supportive environment around you that amplifies your motivation.”

This quote comes from a book I’ve referenced before named “The Motivation Manifesto” and this excerpt really hit me last night as I was traveling home from visiting with some friends that I met during me playing my game of Survivor.

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Look y’all, I have friends! What is crazy is this is just a fraction of the people that I met literally less than two weeks ago, and we were able to come together and laugh, reconnect, and just recount the experiences we went through. Everyone has their own different path, and everyone has their own different experiences that has led them to where they are. This is how we all were able to come together. It’s funny because even though we all were playing against one another, we were able to put all that aside and come together as friends…as a family. We all have different motivations in life and we all have different passions that push us to do what we do daily. We also have things that we may or may not enjoy about our current situations, but it doesn’t stop us from striving for the best.

Sometimes, we feel like we have come towards these dead ends in life and we don’t know which way is up. This (school) year, I have been trying to emulate the power of positivity. I don’t wake up on the right side of the bed every morning. I don’t wake up wanting to be where I am all the time. However, there is a quote that many teachers and others have heard from various professions which goes a little something like this:

“You are the weather maker of your classroom.”

I use this in the sense of being an educator, and how you show up daily is what you are going to gain or lose when you are in situations that may or may not be extremely pleasing to you. But in this battle, how do you stay motivated? 

We know that deep down, there’s always a pull towards something new or something more aligned to our soul purpose that we may not have the answer to. It’s not like you can rub a genie’s bottle and it’ll magically appear in front of you – it takes time. Going back to the quote I stated earlier, I think a lot about how you know when it’s time to take the jump into something new. It could be a trigger that someone pushes that lets you know that you’re not in the right place. It could be a conversation that helps you to realize and recognize your own true power. These conversations and situations don’t happen unless you have the right people in your corner, pumping you up. The beautiful thing about this though, is that you don’t have to always get these affirmations from those that are close to you. The Universe puts people in your path everyday that can help you realize something new about yourself, or help you realize a boundary that you don’t want to be crossed. Every interaction is a learning lesson towards the life that you want to build for yourself, which helps you to create your truth. All situations and interactions are divine, and you have to trust that your intuition, angels, and Higher Power puts you in places at certain times to either feel rejuvenated, give you time to reflect, or question where you are in regards to making something more out of your reality.

This is something that I have been battling with – searching deeply for what makes me feel at home. In a job. With people. With my actions. Any and everything that can make me feel as though I have found my ‘happy place’. It’s hard to be an individual in this world, searching for what makes you feel like you’ve found a home. If you think about the feeling that you feel when you finally make it home after a long day of work, or after a long trip, it’s a calming, loving, peaceful feeling that consumes you because you are happy to be back in the space of your own powerful energy. Why can’t you experience that in all spaces that you encounter? My personal opinion is that when you are able to find that space of just feeling at peace and nestled into happiness and joy with everything around you, you’re functioning at your highest capacity and your ambition towards receiving that is doing what makes your soul feel aflame. If you still feel some sort of resistance to different aspects of your life, that means that you’re still searching for that place that ‘home’ is for you. If that isn’t where you’re feeling right now, keep searching!!!! The power in continuing to look for that level of not just comfortability, but PURPOSE is what is you should always try and encourage your life to feel like. If you feel like you’re forcing it, that’s not home. If you feel emotionally disconnected, that’s not home. If you feel like your anxiety is peaking and you’re not feeling calm in your own skin where you are, that’s not home. Continue to search for what motivates you to make sure that you’re gaining that feeling of patience, passion, and positivity.

Your dreams can only be manifested if you’re continually keeping them at the forefront of your mind. They won’t come to you immediately, but they will come if you continue to send energy towards them. You have to keep sight of the goal at hand, and what will help you to get there. Yes, it may take you making time outside of your normal obligations. Yes, it may make you uncomfortable and put yourself out there in spaces that aren’t your normal realm of peace and familiarity. But the things that are worth it in life are never the easiest things to attain. 

Stay focused and committed towards what keeps you being ambitious. Focus on what pushes you to feel your oats, and keep you grounded in mind, body, soul, and spirit. Also, ensure that your positive attitude and desires are supported by those that are in your circle, or as I like to call it, a part of your ‘tribe’. Your tribe will always be there to give you a reality check, but they’ll always be the hype men or women in your corner that will push you to attain what you know you truly desire. They see your power. They see your greatness. You should continue to strive for that greatness, and put yourself in environments that will continue to make you push towards that end goal you’re searching for.

I’m a firm believer that maintaining a positive attitude as you navigate this world towards your dreams is the only way to garner what you feel you want and deserve. You just have to learn how to reset yourself and keep your head in the game, and allow your Higher Power and the Universe to do its work. When you let go of trying to control everything and let time and the energy of the world do its thing, you always will come out on top. I’m a firm believer in this mantra, and I’m allowing it all to just work out because I put my efforts into believing that it will. You should too. Fight for your right, and never give up on your truth. It’s the only thing you have that will keep you sane, and keep you moving towards the direction of your own personal freedom and soul mission.

Stay committed to yourself, first and foremost. It’ll pay off in the end. Just trust the process, and you’ll see the fruits of your labor come to pass. It won’t be roses and butterflies everyday, but you will find that space sooner than you believe. Just hang on tight, and you’ll get there. Trust me.

Amen. Asé.

-gg

Tarot Pull – 8.11.18 – Salamanders

Happy Super New Moon in Leo and Partial Solar Eclipse, guys! Today has been a day of intuition and circumstance for me, and I’ve spent a lot of it doing things and decluttering my physical space in a way that can make room for something newer and bigger to enter my life. I know a lot of my friends said they spent their day feeling tired or feeling frantic, and if this was you today, know that this is normal. Today is the first day of that energy being let out into the Universe, and it’ll start to ease itself away from you as time goes on. Be focused on the fact that this is the first step into a new you. You have the power to make whatever you want to see happen, and rest is important when it comes to your own personal self-work. You can’t go a mile a minute and not take a moment for self – you also shouldn’t feel guilty about it either. I’ve been learning that day by day, and starting to feel less and less guilty about my insular moments, or when I feel like my emotions are off-kilter. I just go into spaces where I can recenter myself, and feel like the work I’m doing or the spaces I enter are the best for me and where I want my energy to be.

I spent this morning hearing some wonderful stories about the shortcomings people have overcome, and then had some time to visit an old coworker from my very first job in New York. It’s always nice to be able to reconnect with people from your past that will always have a special place in your heart. What was great about this interaction today was that I was gifted with something small I asked the Universe for a while ago. I’d been looking for a new tote bag, because the one that I have is cool, but I wanted something a bit cooler and nicer.

Today, my former coworker, who is really into music and art (that’s how we bonded, plus he is a Scorpio so we got that same kinda energy) has been in the process of getting rid of a lot of things that didn’t serve him. He gifted me with a painting he made of Marion Brown, a jazz artist, and it was something to add to my space. What’s funny is I have been seeing a lot of people post about new artwork they had been buying for their apartment, and I have never been a huge person to have artwork. Well, as of today, I have a new authentic painting of Marion Brown from a friend of mine who actually has a great eye for art, and a brand new tote bag because I had to find a way to carry it home in the rain. He also gifted me with a brand new sweater, and these really cool glasses that he can’t use anymore, but make me look like an even badder bitch.

He’s also a musician, and you can check out his work here – he goes by the stage name Luke Ferrari and he gave me this really awesome pin that I put onto one of my hats. His work is super dope, and takes me back to a really special place that reminds me of the type of music I listened to growing up – a mixture of rock and euphoric music. It was a rainy day here in New York, and getting to vibe out with him was great.

Afterwards, I had come home to figure out where to put the painting. I had to declutter a bit of my space, and I started going through old paperwork and things from past jobs that I knew I didn’t need anymore. It felt like I was seeing old lifestyles and spaces that I used to inhabit coming back out at me, and ripping up those papers and getting rid of them was freeing. It also allowed me to declutter my energetic space, and make more room for the things that are important to me and give my apartment a bit more panache.

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Then, I made a spiritual bath for myself (if you want to know more about that, you should submit a question/comment so I can explain to you what that is, and what I did to create it), ate some food, and then showered and doused myself in the spiritual bath. I felt very clean, fresh, and felt like some things that I was ushering out of my life were sealed for good after accomplishing taking that spiritual bath. Now, I’m feeling a bit tired, but relaxed. It’s just what I needed for the end of a rainy Saturday. I’ve got a couple more days before I officially start work back (not ready to enter that realm of turmoil but a bitch has to make coin), and something really exciting to look forward to this upcoming weekend before I go back. I’m grateful for all the positive energy today has brought, and how small manifestations the Universe heard were able to come to fruition without me having to spend a dime.

If you don’t know me, you don’t know that my catch phrase is “If it’s free, it’s for me.” So, anything that’s up my alley that is free is definitely what I enjoy. Also, another subset to that catch phrase is “the closer to free, the better for me”, because wherever I can cut corners to save a buck (especially these days when my money ain’t as long as it used to be), I will.

Anyways, enough about me. Let’s get into the pull for today.

Today’s pull is an elemental card called Salamanders.

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Salamanders is an elemental card from the deck that I use. A bit more about elemental cards.

“The elementals represent an evolutionary stage in the angelic scale. They represent the four elements: air, water, fire, and earth. They are the impulses that enliven the idea or conception that nothing is inert, static or motionless, but that, on the contrary, the work of God is latent in everything. The theory was conceived that there is a governing force in one of the each elements. These forces, called “elementals” were modeled according to human ideas, and they were included in artistic creations. They were present in dreams and hopes. They formed countless literary works and films, not all of them for children.”

As we see, elementals represent evolution. As today is a day where we are evolving from one stage to the next, the final stage, closing doors and opening new ones and allowing them to come to fruition, The final stage makes me think of that final boss on Sonic the Hedgehog 2 on Sega that was always hard as shit to beat as a chid for me. But, eventually, after trying many a times, I was able to succeed. I see this tarot pull as one that signifies the beginning of something new in life. As you can see on the card, the Salamanders are all represented by fire in some sense.

“In the Fire, the salamanders live, representing strength, the earth’s internal fire, the first spark that lights everything, directing this energy from the center of the earth towards the surface. They also direct the energy from the sun toward our planet, taking away shadows and darkness, which, in turn, are supported by the apprehensions and fears created by the typical insecurity of the human being.”

This word fear makes me think of a post from another friend of mine, Spirit, who has a YouTube page where she recently discussed fear the difference between rational fear and irrational fear. If you would like to understand the difference between the two and think about ways you can move past some of your irrational fears, you should give that video and her channel a look here.

I want you to sit and think about the fire in your belly that you have towards something. Is there something that’s getting in the way of you manifesting your best life? What is that, and why are you scared of moving forward? What blockages do you need to erase in order to allow that fire to come to the surface? Is there someone or something that’s got you trippin’, and you need a reset in order to come to your senses? Ponder on this right now, because the energy is telling me that it is your time to shine, but you have to tap deep down into yourself and let your insecurities melt away. Ain’t no reason for you to not be brave, bitch.

The text states, “These animals govern physiological functions, collaborating in the process of digestion and body temperature. They provide drive and courage, as well as bravery and justice. This card may represent a man or a woman in his or her forties or with much experience in life, who fights for ideals and who is a great thinker, strategist, army officer, or ruler. His or her will is strong, and he or she is dynamic and optimistic, as well as real and rational.”

We all have the ability to tap into this Universal wisdom that resides inside of us, but many of us are scared to take the leap. When was the last time you were worried to do something because of how it might come across to others? When was the last time that you allowed your lack of bravery and your lack of showing up for yourself to get in the way? There is no reason for you to let fear be your barometer. I heard this quote today and I think it’s great here – do you think there is a limousine with FEAR plastered pulls up to your house everyday, and it is your job to hop inside?

I hope you answered ‘hell the fuck no’. It’s your job to push past your worries, and remember that every opportunity and action is a lesson to push you forward. You have the earth supporting you, the Universe supporting you, but you have to remember that support comes from self first. You have strong will, and you may have needed that reminder today. Take the time now to claim your personal power, and remember that there ain’t no reason for you to not be courageous and be brave in taking on your endeavors. As long as you fight for what is idealistic for you and it doesn’t harm others, how can you lose? As long as you’re rational and think things through without being worried about every little piece, you will be fine.

I think this is perfect in terms of the energy the Universe is trying to serve us today. Remember that now is the time to pop the hell out. You deserve to. Your season is here. I want you to revel in it, and remember that your birthright is happiness, and your fire should never die. When it dies, you lose yourself, and that’s not what will help you get to the next level that you deserve to see yourself at.

Take some time to reconnect to that fire in your belly. It’s there – I can feel it from here. Use all that’s within you in order to push forward and burn the competition and those hater bitches that are in your way. And normally, those hater bitches are your inside voices telling you ‘no’. Tell them to shut the hell up, eat their food and mind their business.

I hope you guys go into the rest of the weekend in power, and remember – you can’t fail if you never try.

Amen. Asé.

-gg